Then, three years ago November 7th, we lost our daughter Braelynn to a heart condition.
Baby Girl Brown September 17th, 2010 (15 weeks 2 days)
Before I start I was told I would never be able to carry babies because at 16 I had cervical dysplasia and they had to cut off some of my cervix, which is why my kids are preemies.
We had just found out the sex of our 2nd child when we had our 17 week ultrasound. A little girl. Then, I began to have some bleeding a few weeks later and at the ultrasound when Zoe was 20 weeks, her heart had already stopped beating. We chose to be induced and had to wait several days for the hospital to do the induction. I carried her for 1 week and then was induced & delivered her body.
I went to all of my doctors appointments, and I had the most amazing doctor ever, and the pregnancy was going along smoothly, and everything was perfect. All of the tests came back negative.. and all the ultrasounds showed our li’l peanut to be growing just as he was supposed to. All of his organs were forming and working just as they should while still inside mommy.
Mommy to baby miscarried December 2006
Mommy to baby girl miscarried March 2007
After the loss of our first child, I didn’t want to try again immediately. We waited about 2 months and got pregnant after the 3rd month of trying. I was very cautious this time and didn’t tell anyone but close family. To our dismay, I began bleeding at 5.5 weeks and lost our baby. I was absolutely heartbroken. I couldn’t understand why this was happening to us. At this time, my OB referred me to a specialist to run some tests on my husband and I to see if there was anything wrong. Everything came back completely normal although he recommended IVF for us. I didn’t understand why we would have to do IVF if we were completely fine?!
July 11th, 2010
Fast forward 3 years later, July 10th 2010. It had been a wonderful day, except my boyfriend, Shane, had to work which was nothing new. Six months pregnant, and loving every second of it. I spent most of the day talking to my baby, a girl named Serenity. She was my world and I loved ever second with her in it. I loved every move she made, and I was loving the fact she was a SHE. At some point during the day I made a picture for her using the “Paint” application on mine, and everyone else in the world’s computer to put as my desktop wallpaper.
I was so excited about finally becoming a mother. I went on with the rest of my daily routine as normal. When Shane got home from work we made our trip to the REDBOX and I was noticing the whole way there Serenity was very active, kicking hard in the lower regions of my body (if you know what I mean). I didn’t think much of it except it was annoying and she was going to end up being a soccer player when she got older. We made it home with our movie, and Serenity finally started to calm down a bit. Sherlock Holmes starring Robert Downey Jr, Jude Law, and Rachael McAdams. We watched the movie, got finished with it about 9:00pm. Shane had to work the next day so after the movie he talked to Serenity, told her he loved her, gave her a kiss and kissed me, then rolled over to go to sleep. By that time I had started cramping, which I tried to pass of to be Braxton Hicks (and was complaining about them on twitter). I just could not for the life of me get comfortable.
I kept tossing and turning in the bed, keeping Shane awake. He turned over to me and asked me if I was okay and if I needed him to take me to the hospital. I told him yeah I was okay, I was cramping but it was probably growing pains or Braxton Hicks (I figured it was probably about time for them to start at almost 26 weeks), and I was going to take some tylenol and soak in the tub to see if they would let up (I didn’t want to go to the hospital and them tell me I was dumb, it was just braxton hicks and send me home). He told me if I needed him to yell for him.
January 31, 2007 at 10:59 PM: Well, I think these have been the longest few days of my life, to say the least. Where to start…who even knows. I don’t mind sharing any and all info, because I know so many people have been so concerned for us and believe me when I say that we have felt and been strengthened by the love, thoughts and prayers we have literally felt emanating towards us in what have been the darkest hours of our lives. But it’s just like there is SO much and somehow trying to sum it up for a blog, email, message board seems so very inadequate and overwhelming for me, as well.