Mom to Alexander Michael

2nd trimester angel, born June 30, 2011 due to Incompetent cervix

and 10 early losses July 2004-Sept 2007

Calgary, Alberta Canada

My journey to become a mother started in July 2004. My boyfriend (now husband) and I discovered we were pregnant, I had just turned 20. The timing was not perfect and there were so many things going on between us in our relationship that we were not sure where this was headed, but we were excited. I had had a previous child in 2002 and had given him up for adoption, and since that day I had always felt I was missing that part of me that yearned to be a mother. I don’t regret placing my first child for adoption, I know I wasn’t ready and neither was the babies father, and the family I placed him with were very loving, and experienced a lot of loss on their journey. [Read more…]


Mom to Caroline Avery

Born an angel on September 2nd, 2010

and 3 first trimester miscarriages

September 2005-February 2006

Whispering Pines, NC


Hi. My name is Whitney. I am 35 years old. My journey to become a parent began about 6 years ago, in the summer of 2005. My husband and I had been married for 2 years, and decided it was time for us to start our family.
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Mommy to Nevaeh

December 30, 2005 – August 8, 2006


I remember that morning (August 8th) as if it were yesterday… I was up early, due to having stomach cramps all night long, I got my oldest daughter, Kiersten (she was almost two at the time) some breakfast in the kitchen, turned on the television in the living room, and started to clean up a little bit. I happened to glance at the clock and seen that it was almost 10am, and it was odd because Nevaeh wasn’t awake yet, she never slept that late. [Read more…]


Losses on December 31, 2006

January 20, 2009

October 20, 2009

December 23, 2009

July 12, 2010

April 2011

Cohoes, NY

My name is Samantha and I am a 33 year old woman who has had one live birth and has suffered 6 miscarriages.  My husband and I were married in August of 2006 and decided we wanted to try and have children right away.  We found out in November that were pregnant and were so excited.  We decided to tell our families right away.  They were all so excited, as were we.  We had no idea what to expect, but things were going well.  I started having some spotting just after Christmas, and was very scared by what was going on.  I went to the ER with my husband and they said that it did not look good.  By now I was having heavy bleeding and spotting.  I ended up miscarrying our first child at 7 weeks.  It was December 31, 2006.  Sadly as I was in one hospital miscarrying, my niece was being born in another.   [Read more…]


Mom to Ryleigh Jayne

Born at 14 weeks 6 days on April 24th, 2006

England, UK

I found out I was pregnant with Ryleigh on Sunday 5th February 2006 in Mcdonalds toilets – I remember the time, it was 11:30am. Me and Stuart had been trying for a baby since August 2005, we were both sure that the test would come back negative and very shocked but happy when it came back positive. When I came out of the toilets Stuart could tell just by the big grin on my face and then i passed him the test and he had a big grin on his face. I was so shocked that I could not stop shaking and could not eat my Mcdonalds as I felt too sick with mixed emotions. After Mcdonalds we went to a shop and bought two little baby grows for our growing bean and some mittens, we put them in our baby box once we arrived back at mine. [Read more…]

Biochemical Pregnancy – January 2006
Ruptured Ectopic Pregnancy -April 2006
Early Miscarriage – July 2006
Biochemical Pregnancy – December 2006
Ectopic Pregnancy – September 2007
Early Miscarriage- October 2010

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Mom to Jordan Marie Rouff
Stillborn May 15th, 2006
I lost my baby girl on May 15th, 2006. I was 39 weeks pregnant, 1 week to go…nearly a perfect pregnancy (except for the morning sickness).

I went in on Mother’s Day in 2006 to have them check on the swelling of my feet, hopeful, they would just keep me since I was already dilated to a 3. The nurses went to check the heartbeat and couldn’t find it. They did a sonogram and my worst nightmare was confirmed. My little girl had passed away. 

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Mom to Aidon William Pointer
December 12th, 2006
Marshall, Missouri
My son Aidon was born at 20 weeks on December 12, 2006 at 5:40pm. I had 4 first trimester losses in the years before I was with my husband but I was clueless to a lot of it then. I would find out I was pregnant then miscarry. 

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Mom to Allison Hannah
Stillborn on October 29th, 2006 at 33 weeks 3 days
San Diego, California

In March of 2006, my husband and I got pregnant with our first child just a few months after getting married.  We were very excited.  At the 20-week ultrasound, we found out we were having a girl.  I was a tomboy growing up and hated girly things such as dresses.  I knew that I wanted to raise my daughter as an athletic princess.  She could play sports and be a ballerina.  My little soccer girl would be tough and graceful.  She could wear cleats and be comfortable in dresses.  She would be like me, and at the same time, not like me.  This was my dream for her.  

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Baby Jelly Bean 
Lost January 5th, 2006
Philadelphia, Pennsylvania
I had a miscarriage on January 5, 2006. I was fourteen weeks. One day in late October 2005 while at work, I felt dizzy, figured it was just stress or exhaustion. On the way home, I picked up a pregnancy test. You know, just in case, not really expecting a positive. My husband wouldn’t be home for a couple hours so I took the test. Three minutes later, the two pink lines popped up. I was shocked! I just went to my room and sat on the bed leaving the test in the bathroom sink. My shock turned to worry then to panic. I was only married for a year, working full time, and going to college full time which was why I took my birth control religiously. I had no idea what we were going to do.

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Momma to Sophie
Born into the arms of angels December 27th, 2006
Montoursville, Pennsylvania


The story of Sophie, Born forever sleeping on her due date, December 27th, 2006

I loved her before I knew her.   She was and is my sunshine that waits for me in heaven.  She is my rainbow on a dreary day.   She is the pretty little redhead that I loved for 40 of the shortest weeks of my life while she was in my belly, and that I now get to carry in my heart and love for eternity. [Read more…]

“Angel” lost April 18th, 2006
and “Sweet Pea” lost June 6th, 2008
Mesa, Arizona
After dating for 3 years, my husband popped the question to me. I was ecstatic.  The date was set about 16 months later, on Sept. 29th, 2006.  I immediately started planning everything, like you’re supposed to do. Father dearest was a bit tight with his checkbook though, and we didn’t start looking at anything wedding-related (at least with him and mother involved) until March 2006. I started to stress out around mid March, because all of the big-ticket venues and locations I had thought about, were booked solid. Of course… who tries to reserve a wedding venue a mere 6 months before the wedding?? I missed my period at the end of March, and just chalked it up to the stress all the wedding planning was putting me through.  I was VERY hormonal, and one friend told me I was acting like a pregnant b!tch.  Wow .. such a nice friend .. NOT!!  I mentioned it to my fiance, and he said I wasn’t, I didn’t look pregnant at all, and I was just a tad touchy because the wedding planning wasn’t going my way.  

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Miscarriage at 6.5 weeks in December 2006
Miscarriage at 9.5 weeks in 2007
My husband and I decided in Oct of 2006 we would start trying to have a baby. Well the first time we “tried” it worked in Dec we found out I was pregnant! 
On our 2nd year wedding anniversary we had a small party and thought we would tell everyone the “big news” that day, but the day before I went to the doctor for some bleeding and the next day on our anniversary they called us and said the blood hormone count was not were it should be…we never got to tell anyone about that baby and never did… We lost that baby at 6.5 weeks along. I have never experienced loss like that before, so I greived alone not knowing who to talk to. 

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Mom to Aubrey Lynn
June 21st, 2006 – November 30th, 2006
Springboro, Ohio
Aubrey Lynn, our first child, was born on June 21, 2006. Brad and I had been married for about four years when we started trying to conceive…and while it took a few months to actually get pregnant, we knew the timing was perfect. We were both finished with college…settled into good jobs…had a house…two new cars…and we were both ready and excited to start our family. My pregnancy was pretty normal…and relatively easy…aside from the swollen feet and back pain. I was induced about a week and a half before Aubrey’s due date for some issues I was having with high blood pressure, but it seemed Aubrey was in just as much of a hurry to get out and meet the world as we were to have her here…and after only about 30 minutes of intense labor, she was in our arms. Born at 12:50 p.m. on June 21, 2006, Aubrey weighed in at seven pounds, twelve ounces and was twenty inches long. As most parents would say, Aubrey was the most beautiful child we had ever laid eyes on and we fell in love with her the minute that we saw her…a love that we had not known was possible until she came into our world.

After just a few short days in the hospital, we were ready to bring our baby girl home. It was exciting and terrifying all at the same time…just knowing the vast amount of responsibility that was upon us in taking care of this tiny being. While we had had many visitors in the hospital, we wanted to be alone as a family on our first day at home…just the three of us…and our dog, Charger. When we walked into our house, Charger was immediately drawn to his new little sister. He wanted to check her out…to give her kisses and welcome her home. Little by little, we let Charger get closer and closer to Aubrey, and within an hour, he was already used to her…somehow knowing that he had to be gentle around her at all times…even as hyper as he could be.

During the first few weeks of Aubrey’s life, we spent most of the time just holding her close. She spent most of the time sleeping. It was the most peaceful feeling watching her sleep as she looked so innocent…so content. By the time Aubrey was only a month old, she was already sleeping through the night…something that other parents were completely jealous about. We didn’t know how we had gotten so lucky, but we weren’t complaining. We loved to sleep just as much as she did!

When Aubrey was just a month old, she started smiling…not the smiles you see on babies because they have gas…but that smile that just pulls at your heart…the one where you don’t see how they could open their mouths up any wider…and when Aubrey smiled, her little tongue always stuck out. It was the cutest thing in the world and we fell in love with her all over again every time that we saw her smile like that. The older Aubrey got, the more smiles she had. Sometimes she would still stick out her tongue when she smiled. Sometimes she would just open up her mouth really wide, as if she wanted to tell us something really important. And there were other moments when she smiled that she just had this really sneaky look to her…something we knew could cause a lot of trouble when she was older. No matter how Aubrey smiled, it was absolutely contagious. She loved smiling, and would not only smile for us, but for anyone that paid any amount of attention to her. Everyone commented on what a happy baby she was, and no matter where we went, she brought smiles to everyone’s faces.

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Mom to Hannah Katherine Larsen, September 21st, 2009
Angel Baby, November 23rd, 2006
and Angel Baby, December 28th, 2009
Morgan, New Jersey

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Baby Bean 
October 31st, 2006
Sarnia, Ontario
My period was due October 5, 2006. I kind of had the feeling I was pregnant, had taken a pregnancy test, and it was negative, that was October 4. The next day I started to bleed, and of course, rubbed it off as my period.

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Mommy to baby miscarried July 2006
Mommy to baby miscarried December 2006
Mommy to baby girl miscarried March 2007
Monterey, California
My husband and I had been married for four years.  We had dodged questions for years of “when are you guys going to have kids?!”.  We were just never ready.  We had always taken the right precautions to prevent pregnancy, and knew that when the time was right, we would start trying for a baby.  That time was our fourth wedding anniversary.  To our complete surprise, we learned we were pregnant right away.  We were so excited! I never believed in a million years it would happen on the first try.  We shared the news with friends and family, and carried on day to day with a huge smile on our faces. 
Everything was text book.  I had my first ultrasound at 7 weeks and our baby measured right on time and we got to hear the beautiful heartbeat sound.  At 9 weeks, I began to bleed – a lot.  I knew something was not right.  Within a couple hours of the bleeding beginning, I had awful cramps.  I really knew something was wrong.  My husband and I went straight to the ER.  While there they told us our baby had passed away and I would miscarry naturally.  It was the most painful night of my life knowing that I would basically be giving birth to my dead baby. 

After the loss of our first child, I didn’t want to try again immediately.  We waited about 2 months and got pregnant after the 3rd month of trying.  I was very cautious this time and didn’t tell anyone but close family.  To our dismay, I began bleeding at 5.5 weeks and lost our baby.  I was absolutely heartbroken.  I couldn’t understand why this was happening to us.  At this time, my OB referred me to a specialist to run some tests on my husband and I to see if there was anything wrong.  Everything came back completely normal although he recommended IVF for us.  I didn’t understand why we would have to do IVF if we were completely fine?!

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Mommy to my Angel, Angelina Pearl Lucchese
Born December 29th, 2005 
Went to Heaven January 18th, 2006
Palm City, Florida

My miracle (birth control baby) daughter Angelina Pearl was born December 29th, 2005. She was absolutely perfect. I had to have general surgery @ 28w with her due to an infection. I went to the doctor on Wednesday December 28th and told the doctor I was tired of being pregnant and wanted to be induced on Friday. After being examined, he said I wouldn’t make it and he would see me the next day. 

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Mom to Raime Kailani, April 17th, 2001
Elora Jade, June 27th, 2006 – August 28th, 2006
and Connor Jackson, April 12th, 2007
Jacksonville, NC

Mom to Emma Gayle born still on February 5, 2006
Baby Girl Wright Miscarried on March 1, 2010
Fredericksburg, Indiana
Many of you have asked ” What happened to Emma?” and I had written a story about my loss and have shared it many countless times in hopes that people come to realize that it is my grief journey and that I am here always for those of you who have gone through a loss. You see a loss is not just a miscarriage a loss is your whole world. TO me a loss is a loss no matter how far along you were. Hopes, dreams, love shattered. I want to share it…I think I have been healing through it and I hope that my light will shine in the darkest of days for those who are feeling alone in it.SO here is the story I have shared and I pray it may bring comfort to those who have gone through it, hope for the future and also understanding of who I am today and what I have gone through to get here…GOD IS MY STRENGTH!
Hello. I too am a mommy with empty arms. I was a mommy with a head full of dreams and a heart full of love for my little Emma, yet to be born. But stillbirth, the destroyer of dreams took my whole world away.Here is my story. I feel I need to share it to heal and to reach out to others who have been there or may not be aware of how human we parents are when this happens. I didn’t know anything like this even existed. I only knew about people having babies or just miscarrying early in pregnancy. Not losing them later or even at birth. We need to come together to help get the word out on this tragedy that we have had to face. There is not enough research on this horribly devastating issue nor is there any true way to prevent it from happening. We have to come together and also let our friends, family, neighbors, etc know that we were PREGNANT. We had a baby. We can’t just act like it didn’t happen. It hurts more than they could imagine forever. They just don’t know what to say or to do but if we reach out to them and share our stories, maybe it will open some eyes. I know some states don’t even give birth certificates or even acknowledge the birth. That is heinous. It seems so unfair. I am human, I had a baby,I hurt, I cry and there is reason for it. I would like to share my story with you. I will try and not pour out my heart to where you would need Kleenex, but I am human, I am a mommy with empty arms.
My first pregnancy. Wow. I was so excited. It was a girl and she was healthy and things were going great. She was active and had a lot of hiccups every day and most of the time it was all day long. I had prayed for red curly hair…but I had heard that if the mom has the hiccups then they would have a head full of hair. So I wasn’t sure why she had them. I never got morning sickness and was doing great most of the way through. I had a few times that I had itching and had to take benadryl (which they said was safe…I still took children’s benadryl and usually only took a small a sip). I was worried about her and did not want to jeopardize her in anyway. We were doing great.

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