Putting a face on miscarriage, stillbirth and infant loss
Elizabeth
Mom to twins: Lucy and Anthony
and Baby Taylor
Miscarried at 13.5 weeks gestation on January 13, 2015 & 4 weeks on June 1, 2015
Gainesville, Florida
No woman at 18 years of age should ever have to mumble the devastating words of “I lost my babies.” Those words should have never had to leave my mouth. God, however, had other plans. That was my life, a good 6 months of it. This is my story of loss, of hope, and of courage.
Stacy
Mom to Ryley, Timothy and Daniel
March 3, 2004, May 5, 2012 and May 18, 2013
Alvin, TX
You never think your life will end up with your babies dying. I never thought as a kid/teen, that it would end with me losing babies. It is just something that you don’t even think happens. Until it happens. Then it feels like it is going to kill you. I didn’t even know the depth and grief of miscarriage until I had Ryley. It hit me like a ton of bricks.
Deborah
1998
Tyler, Texas
Even though I did not experience a stillbirth myself, I had two miscarriages several years ago. Back then in 1998, I never even really talked about them with anyone except my husband and my mother. The first one was 9 weeks and we just moved on and kept trying. I was lucky even though I was an older woman, I was able to conceive and give birth via C-section to my beautiful girl who is now 17 years old [at time of writing]!
Megan
Mom to Baby KW
December 31, 2009
Hamilton, Ohio
Once upon a time… in a not so far away land, I met my prince charming and we were happily married. We had been together for six years the day we got married and we always knew our little family was not complete. We were ready to have a baby! Little did we know where the journey of our family would take us… [Read more…]
Laura
Mom to Francesca
November 25, 2012
We were in Inverness, Scotland enjoying out first family holiday and my period was four days late. Since returning after Isabella’s birth two years ago my period has always lasted 26 days so I thought something was up, but I simply put it down to traveling and hormones not going well together. I did buy a pregnancy test because that’s what I always do. I had the choice of buying a cheap one or the same brand one I bought when I got my first ever BFP with Isabella, for some reason I bought the expensive one, perhaps I wanted it to be a sign of good things to come. [Read more…]
Hazel Marie
Mom to Kayden Raileigh
Lost January 31, 2012 at 13 weeks’ gestation
and
An angel baby
Lost October 18, 2012 at 10 weeks’ gestation
Rocky Mount, Virginia
Around mid-November 2011, I had started getting very nauseated day by day, and wondered constantly if I was in-fact pregnant with my second child. After about a month of testing and getting nothing but negative pregnancy tests, I finally got a positive. My husband and I were so happy to be having another little one. Around the time I had found out, it was about Christmas, so my primary doctor’s office was closed and getting plowed with tons of snow. They couldn’t get me scheduled in until about mid-January to get me checked and confirmed for my pregnancy, and to check how far along I was. [Read more…]
Malissa
Miscarried November 26, 2011
11/23/2011
I was at work. When I went on break, I went to the washroom and there was a little blood in my underwear. Then I wiped and there was a little clot. So I called my doc’s office and told them to call my work number. At this time they were calling me down.
When I got down I saw one of my bosses, and I told her what was going on. She told me to sit down. Then my boss came up to me and said my doc was on the phone. I told my doc what was going on and she told me to go to the ER. So I clocked out. [Read more…]
Anna
Mom to Andrew
Died November 30, 2011, and born December 12, 2011
and
McComb, Mississippi
I found out I was pregnant with Andrew a few days before Innocent’s due date. I had not been expecting it because I had been disappointed so many times. I was very happy, but was, of course, worried as well. We hadn’t known what happened to Innocent, so I worried the same thing would happen to Andrew. [Read more…]
Nikki
Mom to Aiden
April 10, 2011
Chicago, IL
I got those beautiful pink lines. Dark, pink, and very big positive in February of 2011. I took a second 5 minutes later just to me sure. And 4 more through out the night. They were all positive. I was so afraid to tell my BF, but so so so excited. All of those doctors who told me I would never get pregnant were wrong and I was going to be mommy after all. The only thing I have ever truly wanted out of life was to be someone’s mommy, and I thought my dream was really going to come true. It wasn’t planned, or expected, but it was certainly welcomed. All seemed to be going ok. [Read more…]
Chantal
Mom to Chloe, Lost 24+ weeks in September 2005
Second Loss at 21 weeks in October 2007
Third Loss at 13 weeks in March 2008
Fourth Loss at 21 weeks in April 2009
Fifth Loss at 12/13 weeks in July 2010
Sixth Loss at 9 weeks in 2010
Seventh Loss at 9 weeks in January 2011
Cape Town, South Africa
I found out I was pregnant for the first time in June 2005. I was nervous about telling my mom, because I was raised “first get married and then babies” lol. After I told my mom MY good news, it took her a while to get over it. Didn’t take her very long though, because the next thing you know she starts buying baby clothes. Me too, I just couldn’t resist the cute little outfits. [Read more…]
On Friday, September 24th, at 6 weeks, I had an ultrasound and when my husband and I saw the baby with a heartbeat on the ultrasound screen and heard the heart beating, we started to slowly and cautiously let ourselves feel some relief and start to get excited about the pregnancy, there was actually a baby growing inside me, this was great news!
I most likely cannot do my children any justice with mere words, but I can try to keep their little spirits alive in me by telling and re-telling these stories. I’m a mother, but probably not in the way that you would expect. Our children do not live among us, for they were too precious for this place. They hurried on to Heaven and I can hardly wait to meet them there.
