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Cheri

Mom to Two Babies

March 9, 2009 and September 4, 2015

Richmond, Virginia

It’s hard enough when you are terrified from the moment you find out you’re pregnant. Having multiple miscarriages makes it even harder. When you’ve tried for over 5 years to get pregnant after the first miscarriage, I think fear doesn’t even begin to explain the feelings you have during that time.

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http://facesofloss.com/2015/09/7884.html

AngelicaAngelica

Mom to Baby Gunn

May 11, 2015

Overland Park, Kansas

Why did this happen to us? After months of trying to convince my husband to have another child, we finally began trying. We became pregnant and then 12 weeks later we lost our baby on the bathroom floor.

I just don’t understand it and I’m not sure I ever will. I knew from our very first ultrasound at 5 weeks in the emergency room for cramping that something wasn’t right. The doctor came in and said “we see a gestational sac but there is no baby in it at this time”, my heart sunk and I became speechless. [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2015/09/7877.html

326616_732537945959_100995688_oCarol

Children:
Baby Bitt 1, died September 25, 2013 (8 weeks)
Baby Bitt 2, died April 19, 2014 (12 weeks)

Austin, Texas

From the time I was a little girl, my life goal was to be a mother. I dreamed of being married – but never of the wedding – and of being pregnant and later being a “mommy”. I have always loved children and started babysitting months before I was legally of age. I was soon a favorite babysitter in my neighborhood, with children congregating wherever I was. It was fun to play and care for all of my neighbors, watching them learn and grow. Pushing babies in a stroller, reading bedtime stories, brushing teeth and picking out pajamas, playing games and cooking meals. As a teenager, I loved it as my job, and I longed for the day I would build my own family.

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http://facesofloss.com/2015/02/7561.html

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 Amy

Mom of Baby Marshall

Born and died September 16, 2013

Anderson, South Carolina

 

In July of 2013, we found out we were having our second child.  We were simply over the moon because we had been hoping for a baby for a while.  Our first child was 5-years-old and had also been asking for a little brother or sister so he wouldn’t be so lonely anymore.

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http://facesofloss.com/2015/01/6635.html

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Amy

Easter Sunday, 2010

Marlborough, MA

Pastel colors are popping up all over the stores. Chocolate covered eggs and sugar coated candies are beginning to be displayed on the shelves. Easter is coming. This is when I start my emotional journey. My personal time to grieve the loss of my baby.

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http://facesofloss.com/2015/01/6638.html

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Yesenia

November 17, 2012

Stone Park, IL

On September 25, 2012 my boyfriend and I found out I was pregnant. We were both happy and anxious. A day before Halloween I had my first ultrasound. I couldn’t believe it- seeing my baby on the screen and thinking, “that’s my little one”. I was 10 weeks. I asked the doctor if we were going to hear the heartbeat and he said no. We went home and showed our family.  I couldn’t explain the happiness I felt inside. I [was] only 20 years old, but I was ready to give up everything for my baby.
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http://facesofloss.com/2015/01/6542.html

Brittani

Mom to Leighton

Lost September 7, 2012

Columbus, Ohio

I found out on July 8th that we were expecting. I was 4 weeks pregnant and due March 15th! So close to my mom’s (March 6th) and my father-in-law’s (March 9th) birthdays! How cool! We were so excited, and so were our daughters!

From day one of finding out I was pregnant, I just had a weird feeling about something, while also having a lot of abdominal pains. At 6 weeks, we finally decided to just go to the hospital and have me checked over. At first they couldn’t figure out what was wrong, but knew something was. They thought I was pregnant with twins and one didn’t make it. They soon realized my hCG levels were not rising enough to be pregnant with twins. My hCG levels were actually lower than they should have been for a 6 week pregnancy. Then we found out that I had a cyst on one side of our baby and a “bleed” on the other. We were worried, but were reassured that for now everything was ok. They scheduled me for an ultrasound and hCG levels checked a couple days later, and everything was good with both! [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2012/10/6070.html

Claire

Houdini

Miscarried April 5, 2012 (blighted ovum)

Tampa, Florida

My boyfriend and I were not trying to get pregnant at the time. I missed my period while we were on a ski trip, and I had decided that if I still didn’t have my period by the time we got back to Florida that I was going to take a test. When I took the test and saw two pink lines, I wasn’t sure how I was supposed to feel. I was scared and overwhelmed as well as happy. We live in a 1 bedroom condo and both hate our jobs. [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2012/09/5941.html

Joy

Mom to Westly Storm
Born May 23, 2011 and died May 25, 2011

and

Baby lost November 3, 2011 at 12 weeks

Portland, Oregon

We had waited years before trying. We wanted to be as “ready” as two people can be. We had been together 8 years and married 4, graduated college, got dogs and had bought a house when we got pregnant with our baby son Westley. We decided early on to name him in part after the character in The Princess Bride…we wanted to give all our love and attention in hopes that are son would be honest, brave, and loving and share in our happiness. [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2012/08/5788.html

Amie

Mom to Little Ellie

Miscarried May 11, 2012

Lodi, Wisconsin

I am Amie. I am married to a wonderful man named Jeremy. We have two boys. Jeremy and I have been together for over 14 years. This is my first miscarriage. I am so sad and heartbroken. I know Jeremy is sad, too; I can see the hurt in his eyes as he tries not to show it. He is dealing with it in his own way. Christmas will be so hard. Ellie was due on December 8th. I can’t believe I will never hold her. I knew something wasn’t right a few weeks ago, but I tried to put it out of my mind. I have been waiting for this pregnancy and baby for so long that I tried like hell to ignore my instincts. When I started spotting on the Monday before, I knew I couldn’t ignore the signs anymore. As the bleeding progressed I started to become more scared. I call the OB nurse and she scheduled an ultrasound. I was 12 weeks along. Ellie had no heartbeat. Her gestational sac only measured 5 weeks and 4 days. She was gone. [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2012/05/5383.html

Kristen

Mom to seven children, five lost

Jessie, May 25, 2009
Kasey Klair, December 14, 2009
Nathanael James, June 17, 2010
Kayla Lucille, April 5, 2011

and

Isaac Damon, December 8, 2011

Austin, Texas

There is a blank page in our wedding album. When my husband asked me, years ago, why it was still blank I said, “I want to put our family portrait there, with all our children. That way when we look at the pictures we get to see our happily ever after.”

That page is still blank. [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2012/05/5372.html

Lisa

Mom to an Angel, who left me October 28, 2010

and

James Ethan, who we said goodbye to on January 11, 2012

Holland Patent, New York

My journey began 2 years ago when I first held the positive pregnancy test. [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2012/04/5059.html

Melissa

Mom to Willow and Darwin

  Lost March 11, 2012

  Lisle, Illinois

We made it 12 weeks and 1 day I  kept dreaming they were girls so I named them the girl names we picked out. [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2012/03/4970.html

Jenny

     3 missed miscarriages: 

     March 2011 at 9 weeks

     October 2011 at 12 weeks

     February 2012 at 8 weeks

 Iowa City, Iowa

 

My Story:

In May 2010 my husband and I decided to ditch my birth control bills and start trying to conceive.  After three months went by with no period, I wasn’t the least bit surprised because I had long cycles as a teenager and always knew something was wrong with me and that someday I’d likely have trouble conceiving.  My ob/gyn ran some blood tests, and in October 2010 I was diagnosed with PCOS. [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2012/03/4871.html

Elizabeth

Mom to baby

Miscarried January 14, 2012 at 12 weeks

Mount Airy, Maryland

January 18, 2012

Fear, Sadness, Anger, Emptiness. This is how I felt when I heard the news that my baby I had been carrying for 12 weeks did not have a heartbeat. This was the worst news I had ever heard.

My husband and I had been trying to conceive for about a year. Finally, in mid-November on a Saturday evening I went to the bathroom and there it was… two lines showed in the window of a pregnancy test. The happiness and joy running through my body was overwhelming. I showed the miracle to my husband and we started to tear up with joy. Our dream had finally come true after many rounds of Clomid and nights of crying endlessly.

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http://facesofloss.com/2012/03/4808.html

Angelic

Mom to Hannah Grace

Due June 23, 2012
Went to Heaven December 19, 2011

Fresno, California

My husband and I always talked about having a baby together one day. We have been together for 7 years, married for almost 4 years. Each of us has a daughter from previous relationships so a baby would blend our families completely.  We had not been planning on getting pregnant but on October 8th I found out, I was pregnant. I was a day late and didn’t think it was even possible since we were using birth control. I decided to take a pregnancy test and it was positive. I took three more tests in amazement, all were positive. I told my husband, who at first was in shock himself. When we told the kids, they were so excited about the new addition to our family. I was beyond thrilled because at 38-years-old I didn’t know if I would get pregnant right away because I had already known that I suffered from hormone imbalance and low progesterone. I called my OB immediately and she placed me on progesterone supplements for the first 12 weeks for my pregnancy. I had morning sickness, fatigue and started to show right so it was hard to keep quiet for long. [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2012/03/4798.html

Ajaleah

Mom to Little One

Miscarried on April 28, 2010 at 12 weeks

Rochester, NY

After almost three years of trying to have a baby brother or sister for our son we went back to fertility doctor and started the process of artificial insemination.  Taking the meds and getting poked and prodded and of course the lack of physical intimacy in creating this child with my husband is a difficult process emotionally for both of us.  However after the success of AI with our first son we knew that it was just a fact of our lives that this was how we are to conceive.   In March of 2010 we got a positive result after two rounds.  I scheduled my first appointment and went in to get our ultrasound.  Watching this little “bean’s” heartbeat on the monitor was amazing.  Just thinking of all the possibilities for our future son or daughter was an experience that I loved and remembered fondly with my first pregnancy, and at that moment over filled my heart again.  I went home and shared the photos that were printed with my husband and son, and began sharing the news with my family and friends. [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2011/12/4010.html

Morgan

Mom to Lyla

Born at 28w6d on July 5, 2010

and Baby V

Miscarried at 12w5d on October 29, 2011

Houston, Texas

My first pregnancy in 2010 with my daughter Lyla was very scary. We found out we were pregnant in January and were so excited! Everything was good until March. I had an extreme amount of bleeding that I woke up to at 2 am one night. I was only 13 weeks. I was so scared but never gave up hope for my baby. I was in and out of the doctor’s office and E.R. that day getting ultrasounds. No one could figure out why I was bleeding the way I was, and some believed I was going to miscarry. The only explanation was that they found that I have a bicornuate uterus (heart-shaped) and maybe that was the cause for the bleeding. They could see the baby, always fine and dancing, in the right horn and a large bleed in the left horn that was about 8 cm.  I was put on complete bedrest to wait it out at home. Once the bleeding subsided after a few days, I starting getting severe cramping/contractions and started passing large blood clots. I was so scared, but still never gave up hope. I remember calling the nurse and asking her about what was going on and she said that if I was going to miscarry, there was nothing they could do. That made me really upset. [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2011/11/3685.html

Tiffany

Mom to Brodilyn, miscarried at 3 months

2011

Lino Lakes, MN

Dear Brodilyn,
From the moment I took the first pregnancy test I loved you. I wanted to be so certain there was a life growing inside of my tummy- I took seven test all confirming there was a precious life growing right under my heart. Although no one could see my physical changes yet, I felt you. After all the tragedies the past couple years- I finally had my strength, love and hope growing in my tummy so close to my heart. I was so excited to to cuddle you in my arms, show you the world, kiss your precious forehead, and tell my sweet baby how much I love you. [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2011/11/3545.html

Felicia

Mom to Malik DeShawn Perry

April 15th, 2010 – June 29th, 2010

Lost to SIDS

and Baby Miscarried at 12 weeks

September 2011

Hendersonville, NC

I didnt know I was pregnant.  I found out I was on march 30th, 2010.  I was due April 3. [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2011/10/3238.html

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