Xochitl

Mom to Baby Spoerer

March 29, 2012

California

I guess you can say my story started a few years ago. My husband and I have always wanted kids. We tried and tried with no such luck. We had talked about it and decided if we could not get pregnant on our own it just wasn’t meant to be. I was finally getting comfortable with the idea that we would be childless. Then, in January 2012, to our greatest surprise, I was pregnant. It was the best day of my life and to top it off, I told my husband the night before his birthday the big news. [Read more...]

Jeri

Mom to 1st miscarriage, June 2011 at 6 weeks

and

Madilyn Jo, miscarried in 2012 at 10 weeks

Olathe, Kansas

In June 2011, we found out I was pregnant. I had an array of mixed emotions. We had a full apartment with my 2 kids, ages 12 and 14 at the time, we had just had a baby in December 2010, and my fiancé’s daughter was living with us, who was pregnant and due in October. Being I just had a baby in December and was still breastfeeding, I hadn’t had a menstrual cycle yet, so my doctor wanted an ultrasound to see how far along I was and to find my due date. We had our first ultrasound and all those mixed emotions went away…there was our baby-to-be, right there on the screen. At that point, I knew we’d be ok; everything would work out. The technician put me about 4 weeks gestation, and really too soon to confirm a due date, so my doctor ordered another ultrasound for two weeks out to look for growth and an approximate due date then. We left and became so excited about our news, and immedately started telling family and friends. [Read more...]

Hazel Marie

Mom to Kayden Raileigh

Lost January 31, 2012 at 13 weeks’ gestation

and

An angel baby
Lost October 18, 2012 at 10 weeks’ gestation

Rocky Mount, Virginia

Around mid-November 2011, I had started getting very nauseated day by day, and wondered constantly if I was in-fact pregnant with my second child. After about a month of testing and getting nothing but negative pregnancy tests, I finally got a positive. My husband and I were so happy to be having another little one. Around the time I had found out, it was about Christmas, so my primary doctor’s office was closed and getting plowed with tons of snow. They couldn’t get me scheduled in until about mid-January to get me checked and confirmed for my pregnancy, and to check how far along I was. [Read more...]

Nicole

Ectopic pregnancy

September 2009

Dartmouth. Nova Scotia, Canada

 

In 2009, I was 22 and probably the happiest person in the world. I had a wonderful boyfriend, the best family and friends in the world, a great job, and a sweet puppy; life was good.

Anyway…HAPPY…my boyfriend and I had just bought a house, on a lake, by a beautiful beach, just the perfect little place for 2 people starting out! We both had alright jobs, and while we didn’t have any immediate plans for the future we just knew we wanted to be together!! [Read more...]

Erin

Mom to twins:

Baby B, lost April 2012 at 10 weeks,

and

 Jaxon Gray,
Born still on June 28, 2012 at 20 weeks

Dayton, Ohio

On March 27th, a week after our son turned 5, we found out we were expecting. We were so happy! We had been trying for 2 years. Our son had been asking for a sibling for awhile, so we were so happy that we could finally give him one! At 7 weeks we had an ultrasound to check for a healthy baby and get an exact due date since we had no idea when we conceived. Well, were we really surprised when we saw 2 little peanuts and 2 little fluttering hearts! Never did we ever expect to naturally get pregnant with twins! And identical twins at that! Baby B was a little smaller but looked good and had a strong heartbeat. I had never been so tired in my life; these little babies were taking everything from me! By 10 weeks I had lost almost 15 pounds! [Read more...]

Katie

Mom to 3 angels

Loss #1: August 21, 2011 at 10.5 weeks
Loss #2: February 17, 2012 at 4.5 weeks
Loss #3: July 17, 2012 at 5 weeks

Florida

This month marks the one year anniversary of the worst day of my life, the day my husband and I became a statistic in a taboo tragedy. The events of the last year have been kept bottled up until now. I’m ready to share the secrets we have been burdened with following the losses of our first three children. [Read more...]

Courtney

Mom to Armony Lane

Lost December 6, 2010

San Antonio, Texas

Most believe every pregnancy ends in a baby, but for me that was not the case. I was 17, a senior in high school, and three months before my 18th birthday when I made the decision to have unprotected sex with a co-worker. His name is Dustin, and was everything I wanted in a guy, plus was from my home state of Texas (at the time I was residing in Montana with my step-dad and mom). [Read more...]

Holle

Mom to “Peanut”
Miscarried April 1, 2010 at 10 weeks 4 days gestation

and

Declan Lloyd
November 18, 2011 to February 14, 2012
(Died at 12 weeks and 4 days old)

St. Peter, Minnesota

My daughter was 4 months old when my husband and I found out we were expecting our third child.  I remember feeling overwhelmed at the thought of another little one to take care of and honestly, a little ashamed that we hadn’t been more careful.  It took me a few weeks to fully embrace my pregnancy, but once I did I was so excited to have another baby.  It felt like we were finally going to be complete.  I had a scheduled ultra sound on April Fool’s Day, 2010.  My husband could not attend; I was there by myself.  I had been chatting with the nurse prior to having the ultrasound and was telling her how different this pregnancy had been and that I was feeling great, with no morning sickness at all.  When I went into the ultrasound, the ultra sound tech got everything ready and started the procedure.  I quickly was able to recognize two little arms and two little legs. It was love at first sight…She didn’t have the picture up more than 45 seconds before she told me she suspected a “demise” and left to get the doctor.  I sat there, all alone, beginning to feel waves of emotions start taking their toll…love for the baby I saw, fear for what the doctor would say, anger at the ultrasound tech, hope that she was wrong…when the doctor came in she confirmed what the tech had thought.  Our baby had passed away…there had indeed been a ”demise”.  His/her short life ended at 10 weeks and 4 days. I found out on April 1st, 2010.  The worst April Fool’s joke you can imagine. [Read more...]

Lisa

Mom to an unnamed child

Lost November 6, 2011 at 10 weeks 2 days

North Stonington, Connecticut

My husband and I always knew we wanted at least two children. I always wanted them close in age. When my daughter was about 11 months old, in September 2011, we decided to try for our second child. We were lucky and excited to conceive that very first month. [Read more...]

Donna

Mom to Baby Sawtelle

Lost September 14, 2005

Etna, Maine

My name is Donna. I met my husband Jerry through a mutual friend of ours, and I think I had some idea right from the start that we would spend the rest of our lives together. 

I always knew, ever since I was a little girl, that I wanted to be a mother.  I had a book that chronicled my school years when I was young, and for every year there was a section in the book asking what you wanted to be when you grew up.  I had some of the typical things, nurse, movie star, etc.  But I always put “Mommy.” [Read more...]

Karen

Mother to Nicholas John

Born in the arms of angels 19 March 2012

Gold Coast, Australia

I can’t believe it has been 3 weeks and 3 days since it happened, it feels so much longer – certainly longer than the entire 9 month pregnancy! [Read more...]

Elizabeth

Mom to Bean Bunny

Lost on February 24, 2012

Decatur, Illinois

 

My husband and I found out January 7, 2012 that we were expecting our first child. We were so excited and happy.

After my first doctors appointment we learned that my gestational sac was empty and our baby had stopped developing very early on. We waited two weeks for another doctor since the first showed no sympathy, not even a simple “sorry”. So after seeing the second doctor who was much kinder, he informed us that the sac was still empty and now starting to collapse. We had been grieving already for the past two weeks and decided to do a d&c the next morning with the new doctor. I would have been one day short of 11 weeks. I miss my baby so much and it hurts when people think that because the sac was empty that there never was a baby, because there was they just didn’t make it past a couple of weeks. I grieve for my first child and dream of him or her playing in a field of daffodils (my favorite flower) in Heaven.
[Read more...]

Angelic

Mom to Hannah Grace

Due June 23, 2012
Went to Heaven December 19, 2011

Fresno, California

My husband and I always talked about having a baby together one day. We have been together for 7 years, married for almost 4 years. Each of us has a daughter from previous relationships so a baby would blend our families completely.  We had not been planning on getting pregnant but on October 8th I found out, I was pregnant. I was a day late and didn’t think it was even possible since we were using birth control. I decided to take a pregnancy test and it was positive. I took three more tests in amazement, all were positive. I told my husband, who at first was in shock himself. When we told the kids, they were so excited about the new addition to our family. I was beyond thrilled because at 38-years-old I didn’t know if I would get pregnant right away because I had already known that I suffered from hormone imbalance and low progesterone. I called my OB immediately and she placed me on progesterone supplements for the first 12 weeks for my pregnancy. I had morning sickness, fatigue and started to show right so it was hard to keep quiet for long. [Read more...]

Crystal

Mom to Her Little Beans

February 2001 – 7 weeks
August 2004 - 7 weeks
November 2011 – 10 weeks

Fort Worth, Texas

My husband and I are high school sweethearts!! We’ll celebrate 9 years this May. I’m grateful to have him as my Rock. I suffer from Stage IV Endometriosis, and I have also have been diagnosed with recurrent miscarriages. It has been a very turbulent ride, but I like to think that we have been made stronger by each experience. It sounds cheesy, but sometimes it’s all you can say to get through the difficult times. [Read more...]

Magen

Mom to chemical pregnancy, May 2011

Eliza Rainn, missed miscarriage at 10 weeks 6 days

November 23, 2011

Madison, Alabama

 

I cannot remember a time when I did not dream of being a mother.

In December 2010 my husband and I decided to start our family. I went to the OB in February and had a prenatal checkup before we started actively trying. Everything came back perfect and we were given the green light to start our family. On Mother’s Day 2011 I got my first positive pregnancy test. It was very faint but it was a positive. I was cautiously excited. It was a Sunday and both of my best friends got positive pregnancy tests that same day. I tried so hard to be excited but I didn’t feel well. I was having some spotting, but everyone kept telling me it was normal. Unfortunately, two days later I started bleeding. My doctor saw me that day and did some lab work. He confirmed a chemical pregnancy. My heart hurt, I was so ready to be a mom. [Read more...]

Tonya

Miscarried in July 2010 at 10 weeks,
November 2010 at 9 weeks,
January 2011 at 8 weeks,
and October 2011 at 7 weeks (IVF)

Costa Mesa, California

I had a perfect pregnancy with my son, zero complications getting or staying pregnant. I have miscarried four times since his first birthday:

  • July 2010 10 weeks
  • November 2010 9 weeks
  • January 2011 8 weeks

    [Read more...]

Emma

Mom to Lily Natalie Anne, miscarried at 10 weeks August 10th, 2006

and “Little Speck”, miscarried at 6 weeks October 13, 2009

Australia

Lily Natalie’s story:

Ever since I knew the meaning of being a mother, I knew that was what I wanted to be. Even my chosen career path as a teacher involves me utilising my maternal feelings in guiding students through their education. As cousins, friends’ babies and other family members were born, I knew that, even at the age of 11, the feeling of a newborn baby in my arms was just…right. I dreamed, imagined, visualised myself holding a baby, mothering a baby, raising a tiny life. [Read more...]

Christina

Mom to Caden Ryann (April 11, 2011 @ 11w2d)

Brady Thomas (August 9, 2011 @ 10w3d)

Portage, Michigan

My name is Christina and I have been married to my husband, Ty, for 4 years.  Shortly after we were married we conceived our first son, Hayden, who is now 3 years old.  Eight months later we conceived our second son, Connor, who is now 2 years old.  Both of my pregnancies were uneventful and aside from Connor being born at 35 weeks I had no complications. [Read more...]

Tabitha

Mom to Baby #1, lost at 8 weeks on April 19th, 2010

and Baby #2, lost at 10 weeks on April 15th, 2011

Bethlehem, GA

Our first baby was a shock and totally unexpected. At our first appointment we found out our baby didn’t have a heartbeat -a blighted ovum is what they called it.

Rachel

Mom to Baby Anthony

August 25th, 2011

Taunton, Massachusetts

In July, I started suspecting I was pregnant. I suspected because my body felt… different.  I was unsure, since my periods are so erratic. I don’t get my periods every month, or around the same time, so I figured it would start up at any time.  Since June, I had some spotting here and there. Occasionally, I would see some spotting, and think maybe I was getting my period finally.  It never came. [Read more...]

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