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Shannon
Mom to Zoey Ann
December 17, 2015
Los Angeles, California 
It all started when I was 30 years old and I was living in Branson Missouri last year.  Hi,  my name is Shannon and last year I found out I was pregnant. I was scared and excited at the same time.  I always wanted a baby. I knew I would be a good mom even though the father was not involved.

When I went to the doctors appointment and they told me I was 8 weeks pregnant,  I was like OMG!  How am I going to tell my parents and just other people. After a few weeks later the doctor told me I will be having a little girl my face lit up. I knew the moment when they said girl what my baby name was going to be.  I decided to name my daughter Zoey Ann.  I had the name Zoey picked out since I was a little girl.  When I finally told my parents the news they were a little shocked but we’re trying to figure a way for me to support my daughter and myself. My dad said why don’t you move back home to Los Angeles California and you can stay with me and your step mom until you have the baby and get on your feet. The plan seemed perfect.  I came out to Los Angeles on Halloween night of 2015 and I enrolled in lamaze classes.  By week 33 I got devastating news. Earlier that day I went to my 33 week check up with my doctor and everything appeared to be good with the both of us and later that day around 5:30pm -6pm my lower stomach was cramping and my dad and I drove to my hospital Good Samaritan which was located in Los Angeles, California. We were in traffic for over an hour and when we finally got to the maternity ward they put me in a room right away and did an ultra sound. The doctor said Zoey does not have a heart beat but we’re going to get a second opinion just in case. I was hoping he was wrong since Zoey was breech. I heard breech babies are harder to find their heat beat. The second ultrasound tech came in and we heard the same response.  Tears rolled out of my eyes.  I couldn’t control it. It was like you couldn’t turn the water works off. After they told me the worst news ever the hospital called my doctor to fill him in and he came down. At this point my contractions were getting stronger and my dad said they were two minutes apart.  It was so painful. I had to deliver Zoey who came within an hour.
 
My Zoey Ann weighed in at 2 pounds and 19 ounces and 15 inches long. Zoey was born December 17th at 1:33am.  No one knows actually when she passed so I just say born/died 12/17/2015.
 
My Zoey was a still birth and was taken from me 6 weeks before she was due. She is now mommy’s little angel who watches over her.
 
I miss and love you so much baby girl. I know we will see each other again.  Remember your mommy will always love you and will never forget you.
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Comments

  1. Hi Shannon. I’m deeply sorry for your loss of baby Zoey. Sending you lots of hugs and for God to give you strength and peace.

  2. Tina Rose says:

    I am so sorry for your loss of your beautiful daughter Zoey Ann. It is so unfair and tragic. I hope you have some good support in California. When you are ready, therapy and/or support groups with other women/families that have faced similar loss might be beneficial. You are not alone, and even though it is a club none of us want to be a part of, we are all here to support you and lend an ear or kind word. Be gentle with yourself.

  3. Deb Fretz says:

    Lots of peace and comfort to you as you mourn your sweet Zoey.

  4. I am so sorry for your loss. Wishing you strength and peace now and in the future.

  5. I lost my son 12.16.15 at full term.. I’m so sorry for your loss. I know your pain.

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