Mom to Lucas Timothy Dale
July 21, 2014 – February 26, 2015
Hi my name is Julie and I am the mother of Lucas who died of USID. I was a single mother for several years with three amazing children, Brittani, Cayltyn and Steven. I was so proud to be their mother and watch them achieve their dreams. Then in 2010 I reunited with my high school sweetheart after 8 years of being single. We were happy. Then, to our surprise, we were pregnant with our son Wyatt who was born on August 3, 2012 and was an amazing blessing to our family. My older children were just in love with him. Then on July 21, 2014, Lucas came along. He was born a fighter. Early in the morning less than 24 hours after his birth, he was taken to the NICU due to low plate count. It was the scariest thing I had ever dealt with. But after a transfusion and 6-day stay in the hospital for him and me, we went home. Everything was great; our family was complete. Lucas was a gentle soul, was happy, slept great, nursed great and was not ill at all during his life.
But then on February 26, 2015, I nursed my son and drove him and his older brother to daycare. That morning I remember him smiling at me and just happy. Then at 11:00 a.m. I got the worst call of my life from the babysitter that Lucas was not breathing. I remember screaming and trying to get to my baby. Then when the nurse told me he was gone, my world died. I sat there trying to understand what was happening to me and how this could happen to me when I had done everything right for my son. When I went to go say good bye, it was like someone killed me along with my son.
After 7 months on this earth, my baby was gone. My life and family changed forever. My family, myself, my husband, my children, and my world will never be the same.
I think to myself daily, what if I stayed home that day, what if I did something different? I also blame myself every day for my son’s death. Grief is not something that is easy and I struggle every day to understand why my son is gone. I will [live] every day honoring my son Lucas Timothy Dale and making sure that he is never forgotten.
You can email Julie at firstname.lastname@example.org