Mother to Johnny Pickup Jr.
Sadly lost November 29, 2012
Parksville, British Columbia, Canada
My heart just sunk and I felt like I had no emotions whatsoever. Like every ounce of happiness inside of me had left. I first assumed it was my fault or something that I had done. It turns out it happened within the first 3 weeks of my pregnancy. A big thing that could have prevented this was taking higher doses of folic acid because my body lacked it. Not many women really think of that, especially when it was not a planned pregnancy. The following day, I had to travel to Victoria to get grief counseling, which didn’t really help, but everyone was very nice. They did another ultrasound just to be certain. I was crying the whole time. This is also when we found out that it would have been a little boy. The moment my fiance, mom and I found out the gender, we broke down. I would never want to remember my baby as an “it” so I just had to know. That was the last time I saw my baby’s heartbeat.