Mother to Sydney Jon
July 9, 2013
On July 9, 2013, our lives were changed forever. I was 37-weeks pregnant with our second child (I had a miscarriage in March 2011) when I was at the doctor for a “routine” check-up. As the doctor was attempting to listen to the baby’s heartbeat, he looked up at me and said, “I’m sorry. There’s no heartbeat.” They say losing a child is the most devastating thing a person can go through and I must say we agree.
In the hours that followed, I would be induced and deliver our baby boy, born asleep, at 8:57 p.m. He weighed 4 pounds, 14 ounces and was 19-1/2″ long and beautiful. It was the greatest and worst day of my life. We finally got to hold our son, but we would never hear him cry, never look into his eyes.
As we struggle every day with the loss of Sydney Jon, I am determined to help other families when their child is born still. I have decided to provide keepsake boxes to my local hospital in hopes that the contents will ease their grief, even if it’s only in the tiniest amount. I include a candle, a brag book and small photo frame, a CD, two small stuffed animals (one for baby & one for the family), a disposable camera, a journal, tissues, a bereavement book, a small container for a lock of the baby’s hair and a homemade sewn or knitted blanket. Also, a guidance packet of information on local support groups and websites that may offer comfort is included. Providing these boxes helps me keep my son’s memory alive, although we could NEVER forget him. .