Mom to Elijah Alexander Larsen
Born still August 9, 2013
On Monday, August 5th I noticed I was having constant pain in my low back, low abdominal and some vaginal pain, however it wasn’t bad. I called the OB and made an appointment for Wednesday the 7th. I ended up cancelling it due to my husband finding work and them wanted him to start at 7am on that Wednesday morning. This was fine because I had already had my first high risk OB appointment set for Thursday, August 8th.
On Tuesday, I felt some kicks that reassured me. We went to bed around midnight. At 3:30 am I woke up to some pain but quickly fell a sleep. I tossed and turned all night. At 5:30am I woke up to terrible pain. My entire stomach hurt, I tried a warm shower but it didn’t help. I started gagging and throwing up from the pain. The pain was indescribable and still is, it wasn’t contractions, it wasn’t pulling.. I don’t know what it was.
Thursday morning I went to my appointment at 8:30am. The doctor was lovely, she did a full exam, we talked about previous pregnancies and then had a plan on what to do with Elijah to prevent him from coming early. She said everything was perfect, she then asked if I would like a scan, one of those fun ones that you can’t say no to. Of course I said yes, even though I just saw him a few days ago. She turned it towards me but quickly turned it to herself. I watched her face turn from happy to instant pain, I knew something was wrong.
I was scared, my stomach had been feeling empty.. After a few minutes she told me that she was having a hard time finding the heartbeat and got another doctor to look. She too couldn’t find the heartbeat and told me our son had past away.
I got another ultrasound two hours later to do some growth measurements and to see if she could see if anything went wrong. The pain is still so raw, I layed in the room looking at the ceiling with clouds, praying over and over that this was mistake. I felt some kicks last night.. Everything looked perfect and so did Elijah. Right after she did amniocentesis (twice) and she wasn’t able to get any fluid out.
I was then admitted to the hospital to be induce. Labor was a total of 9 hours.
Elijah Alexander Larsen was born on August 9th, 2013 at 2:37am,
weighing 4.8 ounces and 8.5 inches long. He was born with a smile on his face and was perfect. He also had beautiful blonde eyebrows and hair. He had huge hands and the cutest feet, toes and fingers.
They don’t know what happened. My placenta and cord was tested, after a hard decision we decided to do an autopsy and they took a lot of my blood. All of my screenings came back normal for first and second trimester. My husband and I should hear back in about two weeks. The wait is excruciating, today has been awfully hard for me. All I think about is holding Elijah. I was 20 weeks and 1 day along when I delivered my baby boy.