Mom to Mae Elizabeth

Born still May 18, 2012

Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania

My husband and I lost our first born baby girl when she was born still on May 18th, 2012.  She was born full-term (40 weeks, 1 day) after 9 months of a healthy pregnancy.  She was wiggling and moving on May 16th and at our 40 week check-up, she was gone.

We are hopeful to bring Baby Mae a sibling eventually, but at almost 5 months out, I am still not emotionally ready.  It seems to be two steps forward and one step back.  We are moving forward.

I miss you Baby Mae.

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  1. I am so sorry for your loss, My daughter was also stillborn on May 18, 2012 at 41 weeks from a placental abruption. If you ever want to talk plese feel free to e-mail me at

  2. Jodie, I am so sorry for your loss. My son was stillborn on 9/12/00. I have said a prayer for you that God would bring you comfort and peace, and that you would hold your baby again in heaven some day.

    • Dear Jodie,
      I also lost my daughter in May (5/7/12) at 39 weeks. Perfectly healthy little baby one day, whisked away into Heaven another. I am struggling with the same feelings you are about trying for another. There is nothing I want more, but my heart is still too heavy with grief. I am praying for you, that you will find healing and peace in your heart, but that your darling Mae will never be far.
      Love, Jana

  3. Jodie- I am sorry. I will pray for you and your family. My son was born still May 13, 2012 at 40 weeks +2 days. I completely understand where you are emotionally. I’m there too. I want to have another baby but he/she won’t ever replace my baby Alexander. For me it’s still early and I had a csection so medically I need to wait anyhow per my MD. Hang in there. It completely sucks that we have to go through this. We will see our children again.

  4. I am so sorry to read this. I know the pain of going into a doctors office for a regular check up and to not hear a heartbeat after 9 months of a healthy, wonderful pregnancy. My son was stillborn on April 2nd, 2012 – just over 37 weeks.
    two steps forward and one step back hits a chord for me – some days it feels like i’m ok, and other days i’m really not ok. I hope that you have a strong support system around you to help you through those really dark days. I don’t know when or if it will stop hurting but I do know that there are some good days in between those tough ones.
    if you ever want to email with somone who gets it when the people around you don’t. feel free to email me. I’ve never reached out to anyone on here, but maybe it would help us both?

  5. Jodie,
    I am so sorry for the loss of your sweet little girl. Our angels have the same birthday…..I am also a Pittsburgher….I was at Magee on 5/18/12 having a D&E because we learned at 19 weeks that our baby boy no longer had a heartbeat. I pray that you will be comforted in your pain and when the time is right, have a healthy rainbow baby in your arms.

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