Mom to Edyn, lost August 2007,
Laurel, lost November 2007,
Brennan, lost February 2010
I’m a writer, and I’ve written about miscarriage on my blog, I’ve even written an entire book about miscarriage and yet writing about Edyn, Laurel, and Brennan is hard.
Writing about the excitement and trepidation I felt with each pregnancy, writing about how badly my husband and I wanted each child, writing about the devastation we felt with each loss, and writing about my husband physically burying one of our tiny children, the words I’m searching for just aren’t coming.
I can write about the pain of miscarriage and I can write about the hope after miscarriage, but for some reason I’m having a hard time writing about my miscarriages.
Edyn, Laurel, and Brennan were all little miracles. Little miracles that were taken out of the world far too soon, but that doesn’t mean their lives didn’t have value.
I can’t pretend that they don’t exist. Their lives and loss have left an indelible mark in my heart. I had three children born in this world and three children born to heaven. All are precious. I have hope because there will come a day when my whole family is together, and all the pain, all the grief, and the loss will all make sense.
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