Mom to Raegan Elizabeth
Estimated Due Date September 22,2012
On January 10, 2012, my life changed forever. When I had my miscarriage, I did not know I was even pregnant yet. The week before I had a feeling but was not completely sure because it was still too early to tell. I ended up miscarrying after my first missed period so I was about 6 weeks at the time. When I missed my period, I wasn’t surprised because I had been stressed out completely at the time. My boyfriend and I were not trying to get pregnant and I did not tell him when I first started to think I might be just because I did not want to freak him out unless I knew for sure. When I found out I called him immediately. After that I still had symptoms of being pregnant, which were like a slap in the face because it was a constant reminder of what had happened. My friends have each tried to be supportive, but none of them really know what to do or say. And my boyfriend has just buried it, so he does not have to deal with it at all. He is there to listen to me when I need to talk, but it seems like he does not even care. I know he cares because how can someone deal with something like that and not care. But I know he is there for me through everything because he even went and saw a counselor with me to talk about it. It has been 2 moths since it happened and every day I have thought about her. Some days are easier than others, but each day that passes I know it is one day closer until I will get to see my little angel again.