Mom to Kayden Kristoffer Catalan

January 8th, 2009

Calgary, Alberta


I had a very easy pregnancy.  I was super healthy, not a thing wrong with me, and little stress in my life.  At about 37 weeks, I had lost a couple lbs, nothing big.  They asked how I felt, and I had felt the same…

At my 38 weeks check up my weight was fine, nothing was wrong at all. At my 39 week check up, I lost weight again and my belly measured a bit smaller..  The doctor wanted to send me for an ultrasound but decided not to because I probably wouldn’t get in until after my due date…  Little did we know that ultra sound could have saved my babies life.

My due date (January 2) came and went. I went to the doctor on January 7 around 10am… I had gotten all 10 movements plus more everyday so it came as a complete shock when no heartbeat was found..  Then they tried to tell me it had to have been days because there was little fluid… I had to have 3 ultra sounds that day, have a bunch of different people tell me my baby was gone, it was awful. The worst part was seeing everyone around me crying, and I couldnt cry, no matter how hard I tried I couldn’t cry.

Well I was induced and had him January 8 at 9:47am. As soon as he emerged the tears started rolling. It was the hardest day of my life, but when he was born the doctors did tell me, I was right. It had been very recent, he looked like he was just asleep… The doctor I had in hospital was amazing, she stayed past her shift to be with me and even offered to be my doctor for future pregnancies.

Well 2yrs later I did go back to her… In this second pregnancy, if it had not been watched closely, I would have lost this baby too. At 32weeks I had border line low fluid, went back at 33weeks and it was normal. At 35 weeks my fluid was low again, and given my history they decided to induce that day. They said it was weird because you dont normally see someones fluid levels go up and down like this…Thankfully this baby was born healthy and ready because my doctor had me have the steroid injections to mature his lungs at 33weeks just incase he had to be born before 34weeks. Im so thankful for this doctor and I only wish she was the one taking care of me in my first pregnancy.

I lost my baby at 40weeks and 5days.

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  1. I am just so sorry for your loss (((HUGS))) My daughter Faith was born sleeping on May 30th 2010 I was 39 weeks 4 days. Sending prayers your way

  2. Hi,
    I am in the process of setting up a friendship based group for parents who have lost little ones. You can find us on Facebook: Face2Face Calgary ( We do not yet have a time/date for the fist meeting, but we’d love it if you can join us. Feel free to e-mail me if you have any questions:
    Thank you

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