Amanda

Mom to Aubre Lynn and Colton Scott

Miscarried June 23rd, 2011 and June 24th, 2011

Washington/Prosperity, Pennsylvania

Where to start? Well, my husband (Scott) and I tried for 3 years to conceive on our own. Finally, we went and saw a fertility specialist. Long story short we conceived on our 1st try! We both were very excited. My fertility Dr. told me with what my blood count was at he was thinking it was multiples. We ended up conceiving twins. We both were very excited;  matter of fact our whole family was excited. I was doing great, feeling great and all of the ultrasounds were great. We had an ultrasound on June 22nd, 2011 (I was 18 weeks 1 day). Both babies were very active and moving around a lot.

On June 23rd I decided I was going to go paint at our new house we had just bought (getting ready to move in). I went home that night, and I felt like I had a gas bubble that needed to pass. I went to the bathroom, and I delivered our daughter Aubre Lynn in the toilet (something I will NEVER EVER forget). I yelled for Scott and was not sure if he heard me or not, so I picked her up and carried her to our bedroom. Scott was in shock: I was like call 911. I felt so bad for him. He was a nervous wreck. He called my best friend, and she was at our house in 10 mins. I was very calm for what was going on.

They ended up life flighting me to a hospital in Pittsburgh. I had about 8-9 people waiting for me when I go off the helicopter. They were wonderful, but all I wanted was Scott. The Dr.’s told me I was going to deliver the 2nd baby, and that is when I started to cry. I delivered Colton Scott on June 24th, 2011 @ 12:25am, and they pronounced him dead at 1:00 am. We had a viewing and funeral for them.

I love both of our kids, and I miss and think about them each and everyday. It has been 6 weeks, and I am ready to try again, but am afraid to try again. Each day does get a little better, but some days are worse than others. I have had lots of blood work done but no answers yet. I am hoping we can figure out what is going on before our next pregnancy.

This is something I would NEVER wish on my worst enemy. No parent should ever have to bear the loss of their child!

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Comments

  1. Stephanie Willis says:

    I lost my own baby Izza Bella Willis last November 6th and it’s been 10 months now since she was Born with a deadly form of dwarfism and I’ll never know what caused this to develop in her and why she had to be taken from her family who loved her so much. I have also had mis-carriages at 10 weeks and the last mis-carriage was at 8 weeks the pregnancy before Izza Bella.
    We started our first 2 babies by using fertilty drugs to loose the first at 10 weeks and the second is now 12 going on 13 followed up 9 years later our 3 year old then another mis-carriage followed by Izza Bella our Biggest heart break to know she’ll never be here to grow in front of us because for not known reasons she was giving a short life born at 35 weeks after a very difficult pregnancy with Poly hydraminos and then ultra sounds warned us but we hoped they was wrong that she had to short of limbs for her age in development and a bell shape chest that would make it impossible for her to grow healthy lungs which is why she isn’t with us today facing her 1 year birthday this October 26th or any of those special mile stones we all look forward to with our children as they grow.
    I hope you have the family I’m so sure you want with all your heart and that you suffer through no more lost babies because it’s something as parent’s we’ll carry all of our days those babies are ours to carry in ourt hearts and minds forever Parents we’ll always be their mom and dads.

  2. Jolene says:

    I am so sorry for the loss of your precious babies, Aubre and Colton. My heart breaks for you and with you. I’ve suffered the loss of two beautiful little boys, Aiden 7/04 at 21 weeks, and Jeremiah 8/11 at 16 weeks. Have you discussed the possibility of an incompetent cervix with your doctors? My prayers go out to you for peace, comfort and strength as you continue your journey.

  3. Sheri says:

    I am so sorry Amanda…..

    This Thursday will be 6 weeks since I lost my daughter at 16 weeks. We went through 2.5 years of fertility treatment, including 4 IUI’s and 2 IVF cycles to get pregnant with Mia. I just started preparing for my next IVF cycle (we have 2 embryos on ice) that will take place in October of this year. If it works, it will have been 3 months since we lost Mia.

    I feel like I have to try again NOW. I’m almost 44 years old and I feel like having a baby is the only thing that will help heal my heart.

    Again, I am so sorry about Aubre and Colton. It is truly heartbreaking :(

  4. tanya says:

    I am so sorry for your loss of your precious angels. My heart aches for you. I delivered my son Mason Joseph at home on July 2, 2011 at 19 1/2 weeks and he is now an angel in heaven. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. We too are going to try again -it is a roller coaster ride…I hope that everything goes well for you all.

    This site has been a blessing in helping cope, esp when you feel like no one unserstands how you are feeling.

    hugs to you

  5. Jenn says:

    So sorry for your loss. I lost b/g twins at 19 weeks that I conceived on ivf#2.

  6. Dave says:

    I am so sorry for your loss and know your pain

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