Emily

Mom to Sprout

March 5, 2011

Bedford, Indiana

Once we decided to add a new member to our household, we were ecstatic to find that we were expecting after just 2 cycles, as I was diagnosed with PCOS with an LH imbalance.

About 2 weeks later I was at work and started cramping and discovered that I was spotting. I took it easy the rest of the day as I could not leave work, and called my OB after work. After being assured that I would be alright, I took a few days off and relaxed and tried to stay off my feet. A few days later the spotting had not stopped and I had called my OB’s office everyday and they seemed to want nothing to do with me. I finally gave up and went to the ER , where an ultrasound revealed by baby had a heartbeat but was measuring a week behind.

As I thought that maybe I misjudged my ovulation date, I was happy and we started to look at baby names, settling on Sprout until we found out the sex of the baby. A week later my hopes were crushed as we discovered through an ultrasound at my first OB appointment that our baby no longer had a heartbeat and had not grown anymore.

Our sprout had become an angel and was born 2 days later. I don’t have much support and on one occasion a family member actually asked me why I couldn’t just get over it. I don’t know how to let go and I feel just as sad as I would if my baby would have been full term. It has only been 3 months, but I know that our precious baby will always have that special place in my heart.

You can contact Emily at countrygal1987@att.net

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