and Second Trimester loss at 19 weeks on September 8th, 2010
My name is Rebecca, I had my 8th miscarriage on Sept. 8 2010.
At my appointment, the doctor could find no heartbeat, and the next day, I had a D and C. I already have 3 children, 18, 13 and 12. I have been through this so many times, and wanted to wait until I past the crucial time… before I got to excited about the whole pregnancy.
I felt that I needed to keep it all to myself.I wanted to spare my bf the pain, and didn’t want all the questions, like, what did I do to cause it, which, his family asked, and that’s a very long story in itself. I took my 18 yr old with me to have the procedure done, I really at the time didn’t feel as “close” to him. I really wanted to greive in my own way, but… was forced to sit and discuss the whole thing. I wasn’t ready… so , now I cant seem to stop crying. I don’t know how to get past all the comments and I just .. wanted to deal with the pain… alone. I don’t feel that was wrong.
We wanted to name her Isabella if it was a girl…I was 19wks