In December of 2008 we became pregnant again. I was terrified, not knowing if I could face the heartbreak of losing another baby. Thankfully, my pregnancy was unremarkable, and my son Josiah was born in August 2009, 4 weeks early, but healthy. My husband and I were so thankful for what we had, 3 healthy children. We debated back and forth for quite a while. Should we “tempt fate”, potentially put ourselves through unnecessary heartbreak? After many late night talks and prayers, we decided to try one more time, since the odds were on our side.
I had to go back to the hospital to retrieve his ashes, barely enough to fill a thimble, yet they were an entire life. What might have been.