Shelly
Missed Miscarriage
Pennsylvania
You know “they” say once you’re pregnant your whole world changes, it’s true, your whole world does change from the moment you see the two lines, a plus, or if using one of those digital tests “pregnant” in big bold letters. Our baby wasn’t planned but we loved him/her from the moment we found out. Only to have all that hope and happiness thrown out.
 
So after I found out baby no longer had a heartbeat and had only made it to 8 weeks. I broke down. We broke down. How is that possible? I really didn’t have cramps everyday, and I certainly wasn’t bleeding. I prayed and prayed the tech made a mistake. I held on to a little peace of hope that she was wrong, maybe my dates were way off and baby was supposed to be 8 weeks.  I went to my midwife on December 28th, holding on to that little bit of hope-and I didn’t even have to ask her to do a second ultrasound for me, she told me right away she would. Thanks for not making me seem so stupid midwife. Holding onto that little glimmer of hope, because my belly had seemed to be getting bigger still (oh yeah apparently that can happen even if your baby has passed-thanks for the false hope mother nature) she did an external ultrasound, and there was my baby. Finally I got to see our baby. One problem-baby was not moving, baby was still. And yet again broke down. Why was I expecting anything to be different? Maybe I shouldn’t of read those stories on misdiagnosed miscarriages. But I’m glad I didn’t have to sit there looking dumb asking for another ultrasound, that my midwife just knew what I wanted. We needed closure and we got it.

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Lisa
Mom to Faith Marie & Hope Marie
Born and died February 8th, 2011
Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania
My husband and I were in the process of moving back home closer to family when I found out I was pregnant.  I surprised him on our two year anniversary with the pregnancy test hidden under his gift I was giving him.  It seemed like perfect timing and that everything was just meant to be.

 
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Nicole
Mom to Joanna Katherine – October 12th, 2010
and Rita Elizabeth – October 15th, 2010
Ocean Springs, Mississippi
(Born in Pensacola, Florida)
It’s time to share my story. Part of God’s story in my life. I want to share my story with you. I pray that it will reach into your heart and awaken your soul. I pray that as a result of my story, YOU will remember your first love.  

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Brooke
Mom to Maddox
September 14th, 2010 – January 14th, 2011
Dixon, Illinois
I got pregnant in December 2009. I am a teen so at first it seemed like a bad situation but I knew I was made to be a mother. Abortion or Adoption never crossed my mind. I knew I wanted to love and be with my child, and my entire pregnancy I studied, researched, and prepared for my beautiful son. I put my whole self into every decision I made for him and when he finally entered this world on September, 14th, 2010, my whole life changed. I was so ready to be a parent. I loved my son so much already. 

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Kai
Mom to Nadia
Passed away at 36 weeks in utero
Born February 18th, 2010
Mountain View, California

After several years of fertility treatments, we were overjoyed (and truthfully a bit anxious) to find out that we were going to have twins. Twins…I couldn’t believe it… of all the emotions that I felt, joy is the one I still hold on to. We had lost a child to an early miscarriage more than a year earlier, so we decided to keep our news to ourselves until after my first trimester. At 13 weeks, we couldn’t believe it- we had made it through the first trimester and everyone was doing well. 

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Laeci
Mom to Baby Shay
Miscarried at 8 weeks
Redding, California
A week before Christmas, I was on the internet looking at baby names. My husband asked suspiciously, “You’re not adopting any more pets, are you?” “No,” I replied, “I think I’m pregnant.” He laughed. I was on the pill and hadn’t missed a period or experienced any signs of pregnancy, so it certainly didn’t seem likely. Despite never being pregnant before, I insisted that I ‘felt’ pregnant. Three days later I took a test and saw a positive.

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Sherri
Mother to Kristen Eva
Born November 19th, 2010, Left that same evening
Bellevue, Newfoundland and Labrador, Canada

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Shawna
Mommy to Austin Liam
January 2nd, 2008
Adams, New York
On April 28th, 2007, I found out I was pregnant for my firstborn son, Austin. I was 17 at the time and scared to death but I was happily going through with the pregnancy. I went to the doctor that my boyfriend’s mom recommended because she had him with her last son…and I wish that I had gone with my first instincts about him because he turned out to be the last person who should have taken care of us. He was very opinionated even going as far as to tell me that I was too young to be having a baby. That may have been, but I believe that it was completely unprofessional to say that to me.

We found out that I was O-Negative meaning I would have to have rhogam shots. Fine. I never had a problem throughout my whole pregnancy until December 27th, my due date. I was having severe back pain and went in to my doctors office. He checked the babies heartbeat and it was ALOT lower than normal. I knew what his heartrate was from every single appointment because it seemed important to know. Then, the doctor told me that I was fine and sent me home saying he’d see me at my next appointment. I didn’t feel the baby move really for a few days and I didn’t even really think about it because everyone tells you that the baby doesn’t move as much when you get near the end of your pregnancy. So, I just assumed it was normal. On December 31st, I started having some back contractions but nothing timeable so I didn’t think much of it. The next morning I was having contractions that timed at 7 minutes apart. I called the doctor and he told me that once they got to 5 minutes apart to call him back. As soon as I was able to call him back he told me to go ahead and meet him at the hospital.
 

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Krystal
Mom to Stella Grace
Stillborn at 37w 4d gestation on October 28th, 2010
Rochester, Wisconsin
Thursday Oct 28th, 2010.

I was 37weeks 4 days pregnant with our 3rd and what we were calling, our last, addition to the family. Everything was in place, planned, prepped and ready for her arrival. I had been preparing for my first natural homebirth for the last 9 months and was extremely excited for labor to begin. The entire pg was excellent, healthy and the most active baby I have ever carried. I thought for sure she was going to be a huge child and very active (that or there were 2 in there).

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Melissa
Mom to “Baby”
Lost at 19 weeks 2 days, August 4th, 2010
Fort Collins, Colorado
WARNING: This is the TRUE story of my pregnancy journey and the grief and loss that ensued. This is not for the faint of heart.

I lost my first pregnancy on my mother’s birthday, at 6 weeks. 

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Amy
Mom to Bethany Hope von Oven
May 3rd, 2009
Kathleen, Georgia
May 3, 2009 is a day I will never forget.  Although many of the memories are vague in my mind, I will never forget the reality of that day! May 2, was a beautiful Saturday filled with joy and laughter. I woke up anxious and exited to start the day. I was having a baby shower at our church and, although I was nervous due to the fact that I am not very fond of social gatherings with me as the center of attention, I was still elated.

The baby shower was beautiful and yet exhausting. By the time I returned home I had been gone a total of five hours. I was tired, swollen, hungry, and all of the other so called clichés very pregnant women seem to experience late in pregnancy! 

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Tabatha
Mom to Savanna Dawn
Born March 28th, 2010
Passed Away November 12th, 2010
Wichita Falls, Texas

It was a Friday like any other Friday. J woke up and got ready for work. As he got out of the shower, I woke up and jumped in the shower. J left for work, and I finished getting ready. This was our routine for the last 4 months. Once I got dressed, hair done, makeup done I made a cup of coffee and got S’ breakfast ready. Fruit and milk. I could hear her little gibberish over the speaker of the baby monitor. I peeked in on her and she was slowly starting to stir. I turned on her mobile and closed the door, knowing this would keep her attention for awhile bit longer as I continued to get prepared for the day.

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Eufemia
Mom to Nathaniel Joel Rodriguez
January 14th, 2009

God bless. My name is Eufemia Barreto.  When I found out I was pregnant with my 5th child I was excited– i already had 1 son and 3 girls, when I found out I was having another son I thought my oldest son is going to be happy. But I also found out that I had infection in both kidneys but I didn’t let that stop me I took care of myself as best as i could.

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Jennifer
Mom to 
Tierney Faith Ibarra 
Stillborn January 21st, 2011
and Eden Hope Ibarra 
February 4th, 2011, born alive at 5:25 a.m., passed away at 7:00 a.m.
San Francisco, California

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Kirsten
Mom to Boe
April 22nd, 2010
Huntington Beach, California
229 days.  That is how long I carried my precious baby boys.  My husband and I found out 14 weeks into our 2nd pregnancy that I was carrying spontaneous triplet boys.  It was a set of identical twins and a singleton.  A,B and C; then, once we found out all 3 were boys, Adler, Boe and Cameron.  My pregnancy was a pretty easy one, all things considered.  I had weekly doctor’s visits and always got good reports.  Boe was always a bit smaller, but the doctor said he was still within normal range, and it is to be expected that there will be a smaller one in a multiple pregnancy.

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Samantha
Mom to Zoie Madisyn Hebert
Born Sleeping November 30th, 2010 at 39 weeks
Plattsburg, New York
 I went into my 39 week doctors appointment Tuesday morning and it was just like every other routine appointment. He checked my cervix and I was 2cm, then he went to listen to her heartbeat and he couldn’t find it. He took me in to check on the ultrasound and he still couldn’t find it. I was sent to an imaging center to check on a better machine…. still nothing! This was the worse news ever.
 

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Karen
Mom to Jesse Gabriel
December 19th, 2009
Westminster, Colorado
My husband, Billy, and I were married on June 21, 2008. The first day of summer. One year later to the day, we decided that it was time to start to grow our family. In September, I found myself in the bathroom, staring with disbelief at the home pregnancy test. There were two lines. Two lines! When I told Billy, it was still with disbelief, not wanting to allow myself to get my hopes up too much. We decided to do a second one, you know, in case the first was a fluke. The result was the same, but Billy insisted I go get one of the tests that had the words on them. “Pregnant” Twice. Four pregnancy tests, all positive. Can’t get much more sure than that!


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Shanna
Mom to Stella Mae
Born February 1st, 2011
Went to be with the Lord February 5th, 2011
Almo, Kentucky
It took my husband and I almost three years to get pregnant. We spent a full year trying to get pregnant on our own before we finally went to the doctor frustrated, angry, and exhausted. After almost two years of medications and having surgery to open my tubes we finally got pregnant in August 2010. It sounds funny, but I was shocked. I had just been so used to the negative pregnancy tests that the positive one did not seem real. Right from the start I was terrified that I was going to lose this pregnancy. 

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Cyndi
Mom to Gabriel Benjamin
Stillborn at 18 weeks on August 12th, 2010
Orem, Utah
My husband, Ben, and I have always wanted a lot of kids and have been so thankful for the chance to be parents, especially after struggling with infertility before we had any. We knew for sure that we always wanted to have at least four, but were always open to more. After being blessed with our first four, two boys and two girls, we really felt like we were meant to have another. We prayed about it and knew it was right and on May 3, 2010 when our pregnancy test was positive after trying to conceive for only a month, we were so excited. We felt so blessed for the chance to be parents again to another precious child.


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Nicole
Mom to Hunter Joe
January 31st, 2011
Laurel, Maryland
I can honestly say that the day that I lost Hunter was THE worst day I have ever had in my entire life!  No exaggerations.  I was mostly numb that day, due to pain meds and preparing for it for almost a week.  


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