My husband and I found out we were expecting our fourth child in February of 2010. I was very scared about having another child as my hands were pretty full with our other children. Bradley was 7, Emily was 5 & Wesley was 2. I was excited to be giving my other children a new sibling and I was even more excited that my oldest two would know a little more about what was happening to my body.I knew they would be super excited to welcome a new baby to our home! I couldn’t wait and told everyone I knew as soon as I took the test!
In August of 2010, things in my pregnancy started to get a little more difficult. At my appointment they measure Nicholas to be too big according to my dates. They scheduled me for an ultrasound. According to the ultrasound I was carrying double the amount of amniotic fluid than I was suppose to have. They weren’t sure why Nicholas wasn’t swallowing the fluid correctly and it concerned them. They scheduled me for more ultrasounds. They checked all of his organs and everything seemed to be functioning correctly which put me at ease. I was transfered to a high risk doctor who would be able to watch my pregnancy closer.
On September 28th, 2010 I went in for an NST check-up and because I had been going and they were having a difficult time getting results that they liked they sent me straight upstairs for a bio-profile ultrasound. This particular ultrasound is used by checking movements of the baby and checking how much amniotic fluid I had, etc. My normal score for this was about an 8, which is the best you can get. I was barely getting an 8. On this particular date I went in and my bio-profile was scoring a 4. Which means Nicholas wasn’t making enough movements. I went back down to NST with the results and they called my doctor. The doctor thought the ultrasound tech. did the testing wrong and asked to have it re-done by the supervisor. This time when they did the bio-profile the results was a 1. Nobody would tell me what was going on but they sent me straight to labor & delivery. I knew something was wrong but I wasn’t sure what and how bad. I was terrified. My mother-in-law had taken me to the hospital and we had my younger son with us. I was told that they would probably send me in for a C-section. I asked my mother-in-law to go pick my husband up from work and drop my son off with a friend. I left my car at my husband’s work but forgot to leave the keys so he had no way to get to me quickly. He worked about a half-hour from the hospital. My mother-in-law left and I was on the phone with my husband telling him what was going on when 3 nurses and a doctor rushed in. One nurse was giving me an IV and the doctor asked me “Have you ever had a C-section before?”
On October 1st we decided we were going to have to take Nicholas off life support but decided to let people come see him. We waited a few days because we wanted a chance to have our kids come meet their brother (if they wanted to) and October 2nd is my husband’s birthday. We, obviously, didn’t want to take him off life support on my husband’s birthday. My friend brought our children to the hospital on October 2nd. I scheduled to have a photography company called Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep come out and take family pictures. This company does free pictures for families that are losing infants. Now we have great pictures to remember Nicholas!
On October 3rd, my husband and I decided we needed to take Nicholas off of life support. I was holding my son when he passed away but I asked whoever wanted to be in the room with me to please stay. I thought it would be better if I had some support. My husband wasn’t able to stay, he couldn’t handle it. In the room with me I had my mother, my mother-in-law, two sisters and my Aunt. I’m very thankful I had the support of them. Nicholas passed away at 2:08pm on October 3rd, 2010 at 5 days old.