Baby A was low. Very low. It’s a girl. Baby B was stretched out along my right side. Feet pushing ribs. It’s a girl. Baby C was balled up on my left side and very high, spinning and wiggling all the time. It’s a girl. Our excitement was completely short lived when our nurse informed us that it appears I have a cord prolapse. I was immediately admitted to labor and delivery, put on complete hospital bedrest and my bed was put on an incline so that my baby would not put any pressure on her prolapsed cord or so she would not be delivered.
This was the worst news ever. Baby A had a cord prolapse. A baby cannot be born vaginally with a prolapse. The cord comes out before the baby and cuts off all oxygen. A prolapsed baby has to be delivered by Caesarean section. Not an option for me since I am only 22 weeks pregnant and obviously carrying more than one baby. The next day we attempted a cerclage to stitch my cervix closed so the babies would not be born. However, the cord would not go back in and a cerclage was out of the question. I would be in the hospital until the babies were born and we were hoping this would be at least 8 weeks. Baby A was now called Grace. She was hanging in there by the grace of God.
My sweet little Olivia was sick from day one. She had a perforated bowel. She had NEC. She had infections. Her lungs were in bad shape and she was on the oscillator which made her very edematous. Plus she quit using the bathroom which made her even more edematous. Looking back on things now, I know this poor baby never stood a chance. She was so sick but she was so strong. She never gave up. She was going to be so stubborn I just knew it. After 37 days of life, Olivia was not getting better. Things were looking very grim for her. Tony and I prayed for her and just wanted her to be at peace. On October 4, 2008, we took Olivia off all support and held her privately until she passed into the arms of Jesus.
We see our girls every day in our living miracle, Betsy. It’s so hard to watch her grow knowing she is a triplet, has two sisters who she will never meet. Losing my babies was the hardest thing I have ever been through. I am stronger because of it, but will never, ever be the same.