Mother to Baby due August 18th, 2010, Miscarried December 22nd, 2009
and Baby due December 3rd, 2010, Miscarried April 6th, 2010
After several months of fertility treatments I found out I was pregnant in early December 2009. I was excited. Blood tests confirmed also I was pregnant. Several days after the blood work all the pregnancy symptoms I had disappeared. I took an at home pregnancy test, and it was negative. The next day I had another blood test, and it was confirmed that I would miscarry. I miscarried at home the following day.
A few months later we tried fertility treatments again. This cycle I also got pregnant. The results from the initial blood work I was told to expect another miscarriage. After several other tests I got the official congratulations the day before my 26th birthday. Two days after my birthday I was in severe pain, and had started spotting. I called my fertility doctor and was scheduled for an ultrasound the following day. At the ultrasound it was confirmed to be an ectopic pregnancy. The baby measured at 6wkd2days and a heartbeat was present. I went to have emergency surgery. There were complications during the surgery. I also had a D&C preformed, and I was given two dose of Methotrexate. I learned several days later that I came close to losing my life.
It is speculated that the miscarriage was also an ectopic pregnancy. I am heartbroken every day over the losses of both babies. I have found both infertility and pregnancy loss is a difficult subject at best, and not many people can understand. I still wonder what if things would have been different. My husband, Ben, has been my biggest support. I have found it difficult to move forward after the losses. I feel like I am to blame for what has happened, and that I have failed not only my babies, but myself, and my husband. We recently started back on fertility treatments.
I will never forget my babies, and they will always have a special place in my heart.
Kelly blogs at www.onlykellyandben.blogspot.