Stacey
Mom to Dillan Jesse P. Leombruno
September 17th, 1999
12:20 a.m. – 1:52 p.m.
Clifton Park, New York
Dillan’s Life…..

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AmyLynn
Two Miscarriages 
Baby 1- Ectopic Miscarriage at 10 weeks, Death March 16th, 2010
Baby 2- Ectopic Miscarriage at 10 weeks, Death June 9th, 2010
Barrie, Ontario, Canada
My name is AmyLynn.  I lost my first baby due to an ectopic pregnancy.  I was given a needle that would force by body to miscarry the baby. We had been trying to get pregnant for 3 years, with nothing, then all of a sudden I was in the hospital and it all happened so fast. 
After my body recovered from all of that and the loss, I found out I was pregnant May 14th– my fiancé’s birthday.  The following morning I had bleeding.  Not having a normal pregnancy before, I went to the emergency and was told I was having a miscarriage.  3 weeks later I was back in the hospital not even able to move, to find out that I was 10 weeks pregnant and that I didn’t lose the baby.  It formed into another ectopic pregnancy and ruptured and if something didn’t happen I could die. 

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Amanda
Mom to Gabriel Michael
Born and Passed Away February 27th, 2007
Louisville, Kentucky
This is my story.. the story of my son and how my life changed after this day..

Before I start I was told I would never be able to carry babies because at 16 I had cervical dysplasia and they had to cut off some of my cervix, which is why my kids are preemies.

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Tara
Mom to Allison Hannah
Stillborn on October 29th, 2006 at 33 weeks 3 days
San Diego, California

In March of 2006, my husband and I got pregnant with our first child just a few months after getting married.  We were very excited.  At the 20-week ultrasound, we found out we were having a girl.  I was a tomboy growing up and hated girly things such as dresses.  I knew that I wanted to raise my daughter as an athletic princess.  She could play sports and be a ballerina.  My little soccer girl would be tough and graceful.  She could wear cleats and be comfortable in dresses.  She would be like me, and at the same time, not like me.  This was my dream for her.  

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Kathryn
Mom to Nathan Alin
Miscarried August 23rd, 2010 at 6 weeks 5 days
Edmonds, Washington
My name is Kathryn, I am 25 years old and I lost my baby Nathan at 6 weeks, 5 days on August 23, 2010. My pregnancy was completely unplanned and unexpected. I got pregnant as a result of a one-night stand with someone I barely knew. It was not my proudest moment and I agonized over the fact that my baby would grow up without a dad. But from the beginning I wanted my baby so much. I knew I was pregnant right away. I started dreaming about a little boy. I was so excited to become a mother. My family was not supportive of the pregnancy because I wasn’t married; it was really hard to have everyone receive my good news as bad.


Adding to the stress was the fact that I was so scared I wouldn’t be able to carry to term. My mom and both grandmothers suffered multiple miscarriages and infant losses. I don’t know if it’s genetic or not but I was always afraid it was going to happen to me too. August 23rd was the worst day of my life. I was getting ready to leave for my first doctor’s appointment of the pregnancy when I started feeling bad cramps. I had had some cramping before this but this time I also had a lower backache that wouldn’t go away. I went into the bathroom and saw blood on the tissue. It was bright red. I started hyperventilating and just sank to the floor and rocked back and forth praying that everything was okay. I knew it wasn’t. I eventually got up, called my mother to come with me to the doctor’s and somehow made it out the door. At the doctor’s office I was holding back tears as the nurse took my history. The doctor finally came in and did an exam, she said that it was likely that I was miscarrying but they were going to run a blood test to check my hormone levels. She said she would call me within the next two hours. My mom and I left the doctors and drove home; stopping at the grocery store for some soup and chocolate.  As I was walking back to the car after the store my phone rang. I answered and it was the doctor who told me my hormone levels had dropped, I was miscarrying. I just started crying and crying. My mother drove me home and I laid on the couch, bleeding and crying for the rest of the day.

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Jennifer
Mom to Isaiah Christopher
Born and Died August 3rd, 2008
Petoskey, Michigan

I am a mother.

A mother to five beautiful boys.

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Laura
Mummy to Lacey Jai Hughes
August 25th, 2010
England
When I found out I was pregnant, it was a big shock as I was just 19 at the time. I have grown up around young children and have always loved them.


Through being pregnant I had no morning sickness at all just HUGE cravings of chocolate cake, YUM!
I didn’t really enjoy being pregnant towards the end as my bump was rather big. I couldn’t sleep properly, was always narky with family and felt I was on my own.

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Lisa
Molar Pregnancy
December 10, 2008
Acworth, GA

I always wanted my children close in age. 2 years apart at the most. I was so excited when I got pregnant and found out they were going to be 21 months apart. PERFECT!! Everything was going well, I had early blood work (around 5 weeks) because I was spotting. I had low progesterone with my son so I was started on progesterone just as a precaution. My hCG was doubling like it should so I was reassured that the spotting was normal.

I had my first official OBGYN appointment at 8 weeks, 6 days. I was excited for the ultrasound. To see that little heartbeat. When we got to the office they took us back to the ultrasound room.  It was the probe ultrasound, which is vaginally. As soon as the tech put the probe in, I knew something was wrong. I could see nothing. No sack, no baby, nothing. Just white. Like a snowstorm. That’s when the tech started asking questions. Were my periods regular? Had I had any bleeding. She then told me what I knew already, that there was no baby.

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Story of HOPE

Melisa ~ Wishing Tree
Mommy to Calypso 
6/14/07 – 7/7/07
Calypso was born at 29 weeks 5 days and lived for 23 short days.  I’ve started an Angel Wishing Tree.  I put the names of angels onto the tree when requested and post the photos on my blog and to their parents.  

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Story of HOPE
Karen ~ Nursing Student
Mommy to Mason Maxwell 
Dec 9 2009 – May 27 2010
My 28 weaker passed at six months after many premature complications.  I am a nursing student now, hoping to one day make a difference in the NICU.  It has helped me understand that many families go through what I did, and unfortunately many babies are born in need of NICU attention. 
I hope to one day bring hope to all parents with sick babies just like I was given hope the whole six months my baby was alive and in the NICU.  In the meantime, I’m volunteering at the NICU’s in my area and help with making ‘threads of love for the babies.’  Threads of love can be anything that is sown by a volunteer. Whether it’s a threaded hat, a threaded blanket, or a lovey (little dolls).  In the NICU it is important to keep a parents scent with the baby ~ these loveys are placed in the baby’s incubator.

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Story of HOPE

Amy ~ Writer, Editor and Speaker
Solomon died March 8, 2000  
Baby Z Abbey, m/c October 23, 2000  
Alison Rachel born August 14, 2001  
Adam Jeremy born March 28, 2003

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Story of HOPE


 Sarah ~ Emma and Connor’s bags of LOVE
Story of HOPE


Michelle White ~ Audrey’s Little Light
Mommy to Audrey 
Born Sept.10th died Sept.11, 2009
My daughter Audrey was born at 25 weeks due to pPROM.  She died in the NICU as a result of infection and severe prematurity.  I started a little blog business making customized memorial candles for other baby loss families.  

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Stefanie
Baby Jelly Bean 
Lost January 5th, 2006
Philadelphia, Pennsylvania
I had a miscarriage on January 5, 2006. I was fourteen weeks. One day in late October 2005 while at work, I felt dizzy, figured it was just stress or exhaustion. On the way home, I picked up a pregnancy test. You know, just in case, not really expecting a positive. My husband wouldn’t be home for a couple hours so I took the test. Three minutes later, the two pink lines popped up. I was shocked! I just went to my room and sat on the bed leaving the test in the bathroom sink. My shock turned to worry then to panic. I was only married for a year, working full time, and going to college full time which was why I took my birth control religiously. I had no idea what we were going to do.
 

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Mary Beth
Mom to Reese Aleyna Lowell
August 24th, 2010
Everett, Washington
We decided sometime in the summer or fall of 2009 that we wanted to start trying for our second baby. I recall thinking it took a long time to get pregnant, but in reality, it was probably only a few months. When you’re ready, you’re ready and anxious.

I found out in December that I was pregnant and we were thrilled. The 12 weeks we had to wait to tell anyone were a bit nerve wracking and I tried not to get emotionally attached to the baby so as to protect myself in case of miscarriage. I felt like I started showing right away and I was so excited to finally tell people “No, I’m not getting fat, I’m pregnant!” Once past 12 weeks, it seemed we were home free. We were going to have a baby. The ultrasound tech and I watched as she moved around, her little heart beating perfectly. Even at that stage, I could make out her body quite clearly. “I could watch them for hours, they are so cute and wonderful,” I remember the tech saying to me. “So could I,” I told her.  I breathed a sigh of relief.

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Gina
Mom to Identical Twin Boys, Michael & Brendan, Stillborn May 2005
7 week loss September 1998
9 week loss July 1999
4 week loss January 2000
Complete Molar Pregnancy April 2000
Plainfield, Illinois
Where do I begin? First of all, as you read this you may think “right, no way all of this can happen to one person.” Well, I wish it hadn’t, but it did. Also, it takes a lot to explain all of this loss so you may need to read in segments. I swear, I could write a book.

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Cara
Mom to Kensley Angel
Born Sleeping May 28th, 2010 at 20 weeks
Fort Worth, Texas
My husband and I found out we were expecting on January 24, 2010.  Scheduled our first doctor appointment for February 5, 2010 where we found out I was six weeks along with an expected due date of October 6, 2010.  We were very excited as our oldest was 5 and ready for him to have a sibling.  I was very sick this pregnancy, and completely drained of any energy I had early on.  I started leaning towards a girl because I had all the “textbook” signs of a girl.  In mid April, we went in for our routine 16 week checkup and opted to do the QUAD screen.  It all started going down hill from here. 


My results came back high risk for down syndrome (1:207) and open neural tube defect (1:297), and referred to a high risk doctor.  Although I couldn’t help but panic when I received these results, there was still a very low probability that our baby had either one.  We had our appointment with the specialist and level II sonogram scheduled for the first week in May.  We were so excited to get to see our baby again, and hopefully find out what we were having.  The level II sonogram showed a very healthy baby girl!!  The doctor did not see any other markers for down syndrome and ruled out any possible open neural tube defect…what a relief!  However, she did notice the baby was measuring 10 days smaller than normal for her gestational period of 18 weeks.  My doctor did not seem concerned about it yet, and just said we would monitor the baby and hold off on changing the due date.  When I got home later that day, I really started to become concerned.  I was exact with all my dates as far as my last menstrual period and when I took my home pregnancy so there was no way we could push out my due date.  I had come to the realization that she was indeed measuring smaller.  I had comfort in knowing that my regular 20 week anatomy scan ultrasound was coming up in two weeks and hopefully she would grow some more.  Heading into my 19th week, I started noticing I hadn’t felt her move in a couple days.  I still wasn’t feeling her move consistently yet (just the flutters and butterfly’s) so I wasn’t too alarmed.  I decided to get out my doppler to check her heartbeat and then everything would be fine… or so I thought.  I couldn’t find it right away, or ever again for that matter.  As I headed into my 20 week appointment I was still hoping for the best, but had this feeling that something was not right.  Then on May 24, 2010 as I lay on the table, I hear the doctor utter the most painful-earth stopped moving-dagger in my heart words I have ever heard,  “There is no heartbeat.”

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Samantha
First Miscarriage July 27th, 2009
Second Miscarriage May 6th, 2010
Avondale, Arizona
I still remember finding out that I was pregnant for the first time. I was so happy even though my situation with the Daddy wasn’t the best. Just knowing that I was carrying a little tiny person inside of me made me the happiest person alive. To be totally honest I couldn’t believe that I was actually pregnant so I ended up taking like six tests and of course they all came back positive! At that moment I finally had enough proof to know that it was really true… I was going to be a mommy! I called and told the Daddy that we were pregnant. He wasn’t to happy, because our relationship was on the rocks. I figured he would come around to accept the idea that we were going to be parents. 


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Angie
Mom to Ella Joy
Born October 2nd, 2004
Heaven Bound October 6th, 2004
Guthrie, Oklahoma
Where do I begin to tell the story about one of “God’s greatest gifts?” I know people may think I am crazy by saying this but this year I finally figured it out…God picks only the very special people to be parents of his “angels”.  I am so sad yet honored that I got to carry her…So this is where my story begins.  

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Hope
Mom to Zoe Elizabeth Wood, March 21st, 2007
and Addie Kate Wood, March 25th, 2010
Sevierville, Tennessee
Zoe’s Story
We had just found out the sex of our 2nd child when we had our 17 week ultrasound.  A little girl.  Then, I began to have some bleeding a few weeks later and at the ultrasound when Zoe was 20 weeks, her heart had already stopped beating. We chose to be induced and had to wait several days for the hospital to do the induction.  I carried her for 1 week and then was induced & delivered her body. 


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