January 16th, 2008 will be the day I will never forget. We found out our twin A was a girl and that she was sick. She was diagnosed with Hydrops and Turners Syndrome. We were told that she would most likely not make it another 2 weeks. Eddie did the best he could to ask all the questions for us as I just sat there crying. In a matter of 15 minutes we went from the happy couple that was expecting twins, to being the couple leaving the office in tears.
After being referred to the head of Perinatology at UCLA we were given options. We choose to see how long Sophia would hang on. Every mother always has that hope that there was some kind of mistake. Her child is fine. You can’t give up hope on your child.
The morning of March 11th, 2008 I was on my way to work. As I sat in Los Angeles traffic listening to my favorite music with my hand on my stomach feeling both of my little girls kicking away thinking that I was going to get to see them that afternoon when I went for another appointment. Before I left work my boss Paul asked me if I thought Sophia was still alive. I told him yes, she was I just felt her dancing away that morning.
I walked into the doctors office knowing that Sophia was still with us. The doctor walked in and started the ultrasound. Like every mother that has heard those words, I will never forget: “I am sorry there is no heartbeat on twin A”. I just looked at the screen with a blank face, I did not know what to say or do. My sweet Sophia was gone.
I did what I thought was best. I got up, went to work and kept my mind off of things. I still had to finish my pregnancy. The hardest thing I have ever done was juggle such happiness with such sorrow.
I feel so blessed and honored to be the mother of two precious girls, Sophia and Mya. I feel that I am so lucky to have Mya here with me. In May 2010 I started Walk to Remember, Los Angeles for Sophia. People ask me why I wanted to start WTRLA and tell them I am so blessed to have Mya in my life, and I am so blessed to be Sophia’s mother, this is the least I can do for her.