Mom to Aurora Rose
Born sleeping on April 21st, 2010 at 35 weeks
Binghampton, NY
Late August of 1998 I went on a mini vacation with my father and grandmother to the St. Lawrence River. It’s a place we’ve been going all of my life. Late one night my father woke us up and made us go outside to look at the sky. Together, we watched the sky, witnessing the Aurora Borealis together. It was then that I knew I wanted to name my daughter Aurora. I was going into my senior year of high school and wasn’t even dating anyone at the time, but I didn’t care what my future husband thought.
Fast forward to September 2009, my husband and I just got home from a vacation at the St. Lawrence River and were setting up for a garage sale. We had been married for 3 years, and had been ready for a family since day one. The night before I had the most vivid dream of a baby girl being dropped off at or door stop. I ran outside to grab her out of her car seat and noticed a name tag around her neck with the name “Rose” on it. I looked up and down the street and didn’t see anybody. So I snuggled this girl so tight and told her she was mine. All of the sudden people were knocking at my door and asking for the baby back. I cried and screamed, they couldn’t take her! When I woke up I took a pregnancy test, as I had many times before, and was shocked when this one actually came up positive. We were on cloud nine and couldn’t wait to welcome our first baby into the world.

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Mom to Chloe Isadora
Stillborn at fullterm on July 30th, 2009
Amarillo, TX
I think I was maybe the last to know that I was actually pregnant. It was November 2008 and my husband Robert, daughter Mavis and I had traveled from Amarillo to Austin to spend Thanksgiving with his family. I was in all sorts of denial about why I’d been sick and that my period was late it had to be because of the vast amounts of stress of traveling with a two and a half year old and visiting my in laws. 
My husband and I hadn’t been trying but we were also not trying to stop it from happening and I know his family was waiting impatiently for us to come out with the news that we’d be giving them their first grandchild. They’d always accepted Mavis as their own but I understood it wasn’t exactly the same, not for Robert and not for them. 

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Mom to Jack Everett Hughes
May 8th, 2010-May 10th, 2010
Woodhaven, Michigan
First let me say that if you are easily upset by sad stories, do not continue to read. I don’t want to cause anyone unnecessary sadness. But if you’d like to learn about an incredible little boy, who made more impact in one day of life, than most human beings do in a lifetime, then please read on.

It all began on the morning of Saturday May 8th, 2010. I had been having continuous leaking of my amniotic fluid since that previous Monday and upon doing morning checks of the babies heartbeat, the doctors were growing more concerned. Throughout the day there were several monitorings done of the babies heart rhythm, where they looked at the little tick mark paper to see its fluctuations. After spending that afternoon chatting and relaxing with my mother in law, the nurses came in to tell me they were transferring me to labor and delivery. The doctors wanted to monitor me more closely there.
So we went to our new room and waited while the on call baby doctors came in the check the babies heartbeat. They explained that they believed I was having contractions, (which I was experiencing pain and pressure) and that everytime I did, the babies heartbeat dropped dangerously. They were also concerned that I had an infection in my uterus and that if they did an ultrasound on the baby and he did not do a “breathing” movement, they were going to have to do a c-section to retrieve him. We agreed to this approach because we wanted to do all we could to give Jack the best chance possible, no matter what it did to my body.

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Mom to Lily Grace
Lost at 19 weeks on July 4th, 2010
We found out we were expecting in April, 2010. We were not planning on getting pregnant but were happy none the less. This would be our first baby and number 5 in our little family. I have one son and he has three daughters. His three live with their mother so I was excited that my son would have a sibling of his own. We were waiting to tell people until after the first trimester was over. At 14 weeks we told my parents first since we share a house with them. They were happy but apprehensive since 5 is a lot to handle. 
I told them on a Saturday. The next day, Sunday, I was just feeling yucky, nothing abnormal just yuck so I spent the day on the couch. Early Monday morning, Memorial Day, I woke up to pee and when I wiped it was red! I freaked out and stood up only to have blood pour down my leg. I screamed for my fiance. He is an EMT so I knew he would know what to do. He took one look at me and said looks like we are going to the ER. We got to the ER and they told me that I was having a miscarriage and that I would have to go home and wait for it to happen.My old OB told me to go to a different hospital, because the one I was at would not do a D&C if the baby had any heartbeat at all. I was devastated. I went to work the next day feeling OK but tired. Inevitably, early Wednesday morning I woke up to a gushing feeling. I knew that it was happening so I got up and went to the bathroom. That’s when all hell broke loose. I started to bleed very heavily, throwing up and had a mini-seizure. The ambulance had to take me back to the Catholic hospital because it was closer to my house. After fighting with the ER (they didn’t want to admit me) they gave a room in L&D and given 2 blood transfusions. A MFM doctor finally came to see me and she diagnosed me with a total previa. She said my options were to terminate the pregnancy or to stay on bed rest and try to get to 25 weeks, viability. She said that they did not know why I was bleeding so early since previa usually doesn’t create a problem until late in the 2nd trimester and 3rd. So they sent me home the next day with phone numbers in case I wanted to terminate.

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Mom to twins, lost to miscarriage at 10 weeks
July 29th, 2009
Lethbridge, Alberta, Canada
I found out I was pregnant on June 15th.  I had just completed the DONA birth doula training the day before and was absolutely certain that I wanted another baby.  I was so excited to see a plus sign, and just one day after I had made the decision that I could have another and really wanted to.  One of my good friends took her IUD out the day after I found out I was expecting and “poof” got pregnant right away.  We were to be pregnant together, that was a first for me, generally I’m the only one pregnant.

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Mom to Ryan Alexander
Confirmed miscarriage at 18 weeks
April 3rd, 2006
Lewisberry, PA
My name is Hope.  My husband, Ben, and I were married in September of 2002.  Neither of us were ready for children right away so we waited a few years to give it a try.  We got pregnant in October of 2004 and the pregnancy was great!  We welcomed our first son, Drew, into the world on July 1, 2005 (40 weeks gestation) via Cesarean Section.

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Mom to Nolan Michael
Born premature on June 8th, 2009, died on June 11th, 2009
13 ounce miracle
It was Dec 30th or 31st, I am not too sure exactly what day it was. But I woke up with some cramping and decided to take a test. I remember the 2nd line being faint but there was a line. Holy Cow! We’re pregnant!
I told Chris by running up to Target and buying the movie Knocked Up. I wrapped it up in Xmas paper and gave it to Chris. I woke him up and said I found a present I forgot to give him. He responded with something.. “Oooo I wonder what the heck this is” Since you could tell it was a DVD wrapped up.

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Mom to an angel lost at 5 weeks
May 2009
Maple, ON, Canada
We were so excited. This pregnancy was more than two years in the making. Suddenly, I began to spot and was ordered home from work to bed rest. It was the Mother’s Day weekend. In spite of all my prayers and tears, the bleeding worsened and a trip to the emergency room confirmed what I knew was true. The short time that my baby was inside of me was the happiest I have ever felt. No reason was ever given for the loss. The pregnancy was strong and then suddenly, it wasn’t. It just wasn’t the right time…

We have a winner!

Happy Saturday!

Thanks so much to everyone who subscribed to our official mailing list! We can’t wait to keep you in the loop and updated with exciting Faces updates (but don’t worry, we won’t update you too much! :)

Congrats to subscriber #141, Ana Owusu-Tyo, the winner of the $50 Amazon gift card! Ana, please look for the gift card at the email address you provided when you signed up!

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Mom to Sawyer Erik Williams
June 1st, 2010-June 3rd, 2010
Channahon, IL
I’ve been putting off writing about Sawyer’s birth for a while now, waiting for the right moment to come. I guess today’s the day…

There is a LOT of background to this story, but I really don’t think a lot of it matters at this point. All I know is that I had an instinct that something was really wrong with my baby. I had it for almost five days leading up to his birth. I was in L&D triage at University of Chicago Hospital twice within that period of time. Once because I just didn’t “feel right” and the second time because I woke up the morning of his birth around 4 a.m. soaked in blood.

I already had an ultrasound and appointment scheduled with my MFM doctor that day. After leaving L&D with a clean bill of health (as far as they could see after monitoring me for a few hours, everything was okay with me and okay with the baby) I went to have my ultrasound at the clinic then waited to see the doctor.

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Mom to Andrew Edward Mitchell
December 6th, 2009-December 19th, 2009
Oxford, MS

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Mom to Rose Lynn
Stillborn on January 18th, 2009
Rose was born on January 18th, 2009 at 2:30am. She was a perfect little baby, 6lbs 12 oz and 20 inches, with a stunningly beautiful face, a head full of dark hair, long fingers and toes and my husbands dimpled chin…She lived within my womb for 38 1/2 weeks, and then my baby, my sweet Rose, died.

We were so excited to find out that we were expecting Rose. We’d begun trying when our oldest daughter turned one, and just a few short months later, got the happy news of a positive pregnancy test. When we learned another girl was going to be joining the family, we were over the moon excited. Two precious girls almost exactly two years apart – everything we could have dreamed for was going to come true.

The pregnancy went smoothly, all our tests came back normal, baby was growing on target, Mama was healthy, baby was healthy and all seemed well. Later in the pregnancy, I had a few high BPs at the OB appointments, but it was always resolved within the visit after a few minutes of rest. Then at my 38 week appointment, my BP was high, urine proteins and worsening edema, so I was sent to L&D to check for hypertension. Because both of my pregnancies had been so uneventful, and ‘normal’ I was nervous about being sent to L&D, and started to cry, but the nurse practitioner assured me that everything was fine, it was just precautionary. So off I went to L&D for a NST, blood work and monitoring. For nearly two hours on the NST, our baby girl was healthy and strong, kicking and moving up a storm – the hospital sent me home with a clean bill of health & to check in with the OB in four days. 

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Mom to Fernando Michael Phillip
August 24th, 2004
Rancho Cucamonga, CA
I was blissfully pregnant for the first time at a young age of 23 years. It was so easy. I was glowing, feeling great. I wanted to get pregnant and it was granted to me with ease. Who knew that within 2 months I would be waking up in a pool of water, realizing that my dreams had been shattered and that there was no turning back…

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Mom to Ethin RaiLuc
January 9th, 2009-June 27th, 2009
Newaygo, MI
In May of 2008 my life was busy. I had just moved and was adjusting to being a single parent when I found out I was pregnant.  My pregnancy started off very rough and I was put on bed rest due to placenta previa.  On a visit to the perintologist I was told that my placenta had moved back to a normal position, but they thought there was something wrong with my child’s heart.  July 17, 2008 I was given news that no parent wants to hear.  My baby, a boy my children and I had decided to name Ethin, was going to be born with a Congenital Heart Defect (CHD) called  Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome (HLHS).

The doctors that day had me decide what I wanted to do and I knew I was going to have my son and give him the best chance at survival I could.  This meant delivering my son in Ann Arbor, MI at the University of Michigan Mott Children’s Hospital three hours from my home.  I had many appointments during my pregnancy and Ethin was growing well and was truly perfect with a very special heart.

On January 9, 2009 at 4:01pm Ethin entered this world by c-section screaming like a normal baby.  I remember just feeling elated when I heard him cry, but sad that I did not get to see him.  Ethin was whisked off into the neonatal unit to begin his medical testing to see how bad his little heart was.  In the meantime I was doing everything I could in the recovery room to just prove I was well enough to be wheeled in to meet my son.

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Mom to Baylee Grace
February 26th, 2010
Winston-Salem, NC
I found out that I was pregnant with Baylee in July of 2009. My husband, Adam, and I already had 2 wonderful boys, Tyler and Noah. Tyler was 10 and Noah was at the time. I was suffering from a pretty bad case of “baby fever”. We were very excited when the test came back positive.

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Exciting news, exciting changes!

Hey everyone!

I don’t even know where to begin! I guess a good place to start is THANK YOU! Thank you for submitting your stories, for reading other’s stories, for leaving encouraging comments, for helping get the word out about this new resource. Thank you, thank you, thank you! When I had this little idea, to create a place where women like us could come together, share our stories, and feel, well, normal, I had no idea how quickly it would take off. Thank you again, from the bottom of my heart, for your amazing support.

We are so fired up and excited around here to see all that the future hold for Faces! I just know it in my heart that Faces is going to make a huge difference, and bring hope and reassurance to so many hurting people in the months and years to come.

But we can’t do it without your help!

Every single day, in the US alone, nearly 2,000 women find out that their baby has died. Many of these women leave the hospital or clinic without being given any resources at all. Then there are those like me, who were lucky enough to receive a grief packet, but found the materials out-dated and unappealing. Finding a community of other babyloss moms like me literally saved my life, but unfortunately, I had no idea it existed until weeks after my loss.

Our goal is to get information about Faces of Loss, Faces of Hope into the hands of women who have had a miscarriage, stillbirth, or infant loss, so that they leave the hospital or doctor’s office with a place to turn. So that when they are sitting at home, recovering on the couch, they can find friendship and support right away…when they need it most. So they know they are not alone.

With the help of Sarah, owner of Red Bumble Bee, and Aunt to baby Oliver, we’ve created these informational postcards to get out to hospitals and clinics:

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Mom to fraternal twins Aiden (4/13/09-4/14/09) 
and Sophie (born and died 4/13/09)
Lacrosse, WI
I married my husband in August of 2006.  We wanted to start trying for a family right away, so I immediately stopped taking my oral contraceptives.  I had a suspicion I might have a little trouble in the baby-making area because my periods had always been irregular.  So we just decided we wouldn’t really “try,” we’d just not use protection and see what happens.  Well, because my periods were so irregular, I kept thinking I was pregnant.  I must have taken 35 pregnancy tests in the next year-each one of them saying “Not pregnant.”  So by the next fall, I was ready to actually start trying.  I started to chart my temps and use Ovulation tests, reading forums online and talking to friends that had fertility issues.

A year later, we still weren’t pregnant, so my doctor sent me to someone in the women’s center of my hospital.  She immediately diagnosed me with PCOS (Poly-Cystic Ovarian Syndrome) after looking at me and listening to my symptoms.  She gave me one month’s worth of the lowest dose of clomid and said we’d go from there.

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Mom to Matthew Joseph Sabo
Passed away on May 17th, 2010 at only 20 days old
Corona, CA
On August 9, 2009, Matthew was conceived. We were all very happy to learn of my pregnancy. I couldn’t wait to find out the sex. The anticipation and excitement that I might be carrying our little boy was something that I cannot explain. A son would complete our little family.

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Mom to Isabella Rose
Born an angel on May 6th, 2010, at 37 weeks
Cranston, Rhode Island
From the first time I heard my daughter’s heartbeat at 8 weeks, I fell head over heals in love with her. I looked forward to going to the doctors and listening to her little heart beat and was so excited that it was always high,160+ because I knew I was having a girl, something I had always dreamed of. And on December 30, 2010 and ultrasound confirmed 100% that we were having a girl. Instantly we knew her name was Isabella Rose, and we talked to her a million times a day.

On January 4th 2010 my husband left for Army Basic Training, I was so sad to see him go, he was going to be gone for 4 months, but I did look forward to his return because he would be home right as I was about to give birth to our daughter. I had a perfect pregnancy, I had very minimal weight gain, my stomach always measured perfectly, and my little girl’s heart was always beating away. Literally after each visit my doctor would say I was perfect.

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Mom to twin sons Emmett and Everett
Born too early on August 4th, 2010
Puyallup, Washington
My husband and I married on August 12th, 2006 after having been engaged for 7 years. It was truly one of the best days of my life. Soon after being married we began to try and start a family.  [Read more...]

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