028Megan

Mom to Jackson Davis

Born and Died February 25, 2015

Cleveland, Ohio

When you’re younger, you think about your life and whether or not you want to have children. You might already know you want them so you imagine being pregnant with your cute little bump, a lovely baby shower with your closest friends and family, and then you daydream about what your little one will be like and whether they will look like Mommy or Daddy, who they will grow up to be and so on. Never does it cross anyone’s mind that the child you have longed for, planned for, waited to welcome into this world, would be gone so quickly and there would be nothing you could do.

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Heidi

Mom to Avery Mae Chandler

July 2, 2008

Plano, Texas

I was a little hesitant to begin having children. I knew I wanted them, and, though my husband and I dated for seven years and were married for three when we finally decided to start trying, I was incredibly nervous about the whole process. (In hindsight I can’t help but wonder if a part of me subconsciously knew about the pain in my future.) I was a teacher and had a self-mandated “baby window” so my baby would be born during summer break, and, much to my amazement and delight, everything went as planned.    

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Holly

Baby 1 – 03.25.2010

Baby 2 – 09.03.2014

Cape Canaveral, Florida

Miscarriage, 2010, 2014, Florida

My name is Holly, very soon after my husband and I married in 2009, we knew right away we wanted to start a family.  We figured it would be easy.  Never once crossing our minds that we would have any issues or complications.  All of 2009, we tried and decided to move to the state of Florida in February 2010. I had told my husband right before our move that I would not think about getting pregnant and just let it happen.  Well little did we know within 14 days of moving to Florida we fell pregnant.  I took a test and there were the lines, I called him and was crying “you are going to be a daddy”!

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Mom to Alana

Stillborn October 4, 2013

Katonah, New York

Alana Marie Banerjee was born on October 4th, 2013 at 2:21 a.m. – 6 lbs 8 oz of pure joy for me and her father. At 20 inches long, she was a tall baby, with long skinny legs, slender fingers with perfect miniature nails, and big soft feet with all the requisite toes. She had her father’s nose and ears and eyelashes, my lips and eyebrows, the softest skin I’ve ever felt, and a full head of silky black hair. There was only one thing wrong with this storybook ending; following nine months of a perfectly healthy and blissful pregnancy, our daughter was born dead.

Alana died at 39 weeks 5 days, just two days short of her due date.  Up until the moment the nurse couldn’t find a heartbeat, she’d been healthy and strong.  The doctors had called her fetal monitor read-outs “textbook.”  She’d been active and lively, rolling around in my belly, suffering adorable bouts of in-utero hiccups (often more than once a day) for weeks.  She’d passed every prenatal test with flying colors.  There was never a cause for concern – never a single warning sign.  Until, all of a sudden, she was gone.

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Emily
Mom to Calvin Michael
3/25/15 – 3/27/15
Dover, NH

My husband and I had wanted a second child for some time.  When we were finally financially secure and healthy in our relationship we began trying.  It took two years but finally a positive pregnancy test!  We were thrilled, and our five year old son was too.  We began planning right away, I did all the “right” things – ate healthy, exercised, and tried to relax.  I had terrible morning sickness for about 18 weeks but otherwise had a perfectly healthy pregnancy.  Everything looked normal, baby was growing just fine.  I wanted to have a vbac and so they did a few extra ultrasounds to be sure our baby was head down, we discovered our baby was going to be big!  I didn’t care.  There was one slight question about me possibly having gestational diabetes, but I began testing at home and being very careful about my diet and exercise.
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Jamie

Mother to Samuel Robert

January 29, 2015

Greenville, Pennsylvania

Samuel was our “Bonus Baby” or so we called him.  The news of our pregnancy was a surprise.  Our kids were 9 and 11 when we found out we were expecting.  We had always wanted a third child but so much time had passed we didn’t think it would happened.  We so excited to learn that we would be adding a new member of the family.  My children helped with names and dreamt of the future they would have with their new brother or sister.  The day we learned that our Bonus Baby was a boy, we immediately went shopping and bought the most adorable baby outfits.  My son, who is a baseball fanatic, picked out a special baseball rattle for his brother.  The two of them also agreed on a stuffed Dumbo for Samuel that would hold a special place in his nursery.

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Jamie Lynn

Mom to Edward Malcolm Joseph October 29, 2013

Baby M #1: 11 weeks, July 2014

Baby M #2: 9 weeks, November 2014

Posterior Urethral Valves (PUV)

Ontario, Canada

 

Three years after marrying my amazing husband Michael, we decided to start a family. After a few months of unsuccessful trying, I had a feeling there had to be something wrong… I called my mom and luckily she knew a fantastic fertility doctor who could see me right away.

It was a pretty quick diagnosis – it only took one ultrasound to discover I have polycystic ovaries. We tried a couple cycles of Clomid and then opted for surgery to get my ovaries to respond. Two months later I was pregnant with our absolutely gorgeous and wonderful little girl, Halina. 

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Tori
Mom to Tyson River 3/28/12-3/28/12 stillborn
and Skylar Jones 7/14/14-10/10/14 Complex CHD
New Madrid, Mo

My name is Tori. I am the face of stillborn & CHD Loss. I was expecting our second baby in 2012. Pregnancy was going great. I was 34 wks & 5 days on March 38, 2012 when I wasn’t feeling Tyson moving. Those words “I’m sorry we can’t find a heartbeat” are engraved in my mind. [Read more…]

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Paul

Dad of Johnathan Paul

February 3, 2015

Milwaukee, Wisconsin

It is 4 o’clock, four hours after we found out that Johnathan Paul is no longer with us. We walk into the hospital, to check in. My family is waiting in the waiting room, and Amanda’s is on their way. Amanda and I check in, and we walk to our room. Amanda climbs on the bed, the place she doesn’t move from for the next few days, while I set our bag down, and start to to ‘move in’.

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Hanna

Mom to Maddox Tye

July 13, 2014 – October 17, 2014

Columbia, Kentucky

My husband and I found out we were 6 weeks pregnant in March of 2014. We were so excited. Shortly afterwards, I had a few concerns with my pregnancy and I went to the ER. Come to find out I had a placenta abruption. The doctors told me it would either resolve on its own or get worse. Only time would tell. So time went on and things were fine until I was about 12 weeks, I had another round of issues so I decided to be seen again. It was the same problem, it hadn’t gotten worse but it hadn’t resolved either. The doctor sent me home on mild bed rest. Things went well again and we found out we had a healthy growing baby boy.

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Mom to Johnathan Paul

February 3, 2015

Milwaukee, Wisconsin

After 8 months of trying to get pregnant, one Sunday morning in August I finally saw two pink lines!  After taking it 3 or 4 more times just to be sure, I got my shaking somewhat under control and ran downstairs to tell my husband! I always had a plan of how I would tell him but found myself too excited to follow through on that plan. I couldn’t hold it in much longer! He was ecstatic! We couldn’t believe we were finally having a baby!

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Maria

February 13, 2012

Henderson, Kentucky

I found out I was pregnant sometime around December 2012. I was 18 years old at the time. I was very happy, but very scared of what my father would say, so I didn’t say a word to him. I decided to tell my mother because I knew she wouldn’t be angry with me. My boyfriend Cody (19 years old at the time) didn’t take the news that great, but he came around.

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Amanda
Mom to Benjamin David
October 20, 2014 – November 19, 2014
Lorain, Ohio
When midnight struck, I decided that Ben was sleeping deep enough to lay him in his Arm’s Reach Co-sleeper. He would start out in there every night. But man, he despised not being in my arms! I thought  [my son] Trae was the biggest Momma’s boy, ever. Then, I had Ben lol! Ben slept in his co-sleeper until about 2 or 3 am. I awoke to him fussing, so I put him next to me, laid on my side, and latched him on to eat. And as crappy as it is, I don’t even remember falling asleep. I just did. I never heard another fuss, cry, or anything from Ben that night. He was always so content when sleeping next to me. He had started sleeping so good in the early hours of the morning. Ben was starting to love sleep, almost as much as he loved to eat.
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Children:
Baby Bitt 1, died September 25, 2013 (8 weeks)
Baby Bitt 2, died April 19, 2014 (12 weeks)

Austin, Texas

From the time I was a little girl, my life goal was to be a mother. I dreamed of being married – but never of the wedding – and of being pregnant and later being a “mommy”. I have always loved children and started babysitting months before I was legally of age. I was soon a favorite babysitter in my neighborhood, with children congregating wherever I was. It was fun to play and care for all of my neighbors, watching them learn and grow. Pushing babies in a stroller, reading bedtime stories, brushing teeth and picking out pajamas, playing games and cooking meals. As a teenager, I loved it as my job, and I longed for the day I would build my own family.

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Amber

Mom to Wesley, ectopic pregnancy, April 13, 2010

Mom to Bentley, missed miscarriage, August 13, 2014

Lubbock, Texas

We began trying for a baby starting the summer of 2009.  We had been married about 4 1/2 years and I had been on birth control pills our whole marriage.  We were not actively trying at first, mostly just preventing.  I really thought that we would get pregnant right away.  I have never had any problems with my cycle and it has always been very regular and predictable.  Well, month after month went by with no pregnancy.  Most months I would get my hopes and then my period would start.  I could probably name off everyone who got pregnant while we were trying.  It was very hard to hear people say that they got pregnant their first month trying.  March of 2010 my period was late.  I took several pregnancy tests and they were all negative.  I was also having some pains in my ovary.  I looked some stuff up online and got freaked out!  Then my period started, so everything was fine.  I had decided not to stress about getting pregnant and just leave it all in God’s hands. [Read more…]

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Jennifer

mom to Luke

Stillborn September 10, 2012

Placentia, California

My first pregnancy felt like a dream come true. 

My husband and I had decided in December 2011 that now was the time–We’d officially try for a baby.  We had no idea that things would go so smoothly.  After literally one month of trying, I missed my period, took a test, and there it was–Positive. It was also Friday, January 13, 2012. Maybe that was foreshadowing? I don’t even believe in superstitions, but I still wish I’d taken that test on any other day… [Read more…]

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 Sonia

Mom to 6 living children, 8 angels in Heaven

February 2015

 Oxfordshire, UK

My last miscarriage was a shock. I was actively TTC with an 11 day LP and at 11dpo I tested and got a negative pregnancy test. The period started on 1st February 2015 and lasted until 6th February. [Read more…]

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Shelby

Mom to Brantley

November 26, 2014

Aberdeen, Idaho

On July 26th, 2014 my fiance and I got married. In August we found out we were expecting. We were beyond happy, we bought tons of gender neutral clothes and blankets. We were supposed to find out what our baby was on December 1st but instead we buried our baby that day. On November 26th I started having these horrible pains, not knowing they were contractions and later that night I started bleeding so we rushed to the hospital and they found the baby’s heartbeat but told me I’d have to deliver him (we found out then that he was a boy) and that sometime after I delivered his heart would stop beating because his lungs weren’t strong enough for him to live. I gave birth to him at 11:45 PM, we named him Brantley, he was perfectly healthy. He weighed 10 oz. And he was 9 1/2 in. Long . We held him all through the night and the next morning, it was the hardest thing handing over our sweet baby to be buried. We love and miss him more than anything. We learned that I suffer from IC (Incompetent Cervix) which means my cervix is weak and can’t take the baby’s weight so it dilates way too early. This will happen with every pregnancy I have but I can have a surgical procedure done which is supposed to hold my cervix shut. If anyone has any questions or just wants to talk, feel free to email me.

Shelby can be reached at shelbykayreynolds@yahoo.com

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Heather

Mom to Lydia

Stillborn November 6, 2014

Columbus, Ohio

On Wednesday, November 5, 2014, I was driving to my regular OB check-up. My 34 week check up. I enjoyed some extra time with my toddler son that morning, thinking how our time was limited since his sister would be here soon.  It had started to hit me how soon the baby would be here – with a planned c-section date of December 12, it was just over 5 weeks away.

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Stella

Mom to Eliannah Elisabeth Samuel

Stillborn October 4, 2014

Isaiah 14:24 “The LORD Almighty has sworn, Surely, as I have planned, so it will be, and as I have purposed, so it will happen.”

This has been the verse of my life. I preach this verse to myself time and time again.

I was blessed to be pregnant with our third child after years of trying to conceive. From the moment I knew I was pregnant I knew I was having another beautiful girl. I started searching girl names and came across Eliannah, which means my God has answered me. It was so fitting and perfect since I had prayed for her, and The Lord answered my prayer. I felt such a strong bond with her from the very beginning. I have a very small frame and start showing early on in my pregnancies. I was seven weeks pregnant with a baby bump that I was so proud to show. I start feeling her move at 14 weeks. My children prayed for Eliannah every night. They prayed that God would keep her safe and healthy.

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