May 12, 2012 By 4 Comments

Esmeralda (Lala)

Mom to Ezra Alix

Born sleeping December 12, 2011 at 40 weeks 6 days

San Pedro, California

I kind of had a rough pregnancy with Ezra, but he was always “healthy,” and that’s what kept me going.

I started having severe back problems at 21 weeks and was never the same. In fact, it only got worse in the third trimester, until my insurance finally approved me for physical therapy at 36 weeks . It helped, but I still had pain. I also had rib pain and trouble breathing from about 30 weeks due to Costochondritis. But he always had a strong heartbeat and was constantly moving. (Always always on the move and I loved it). [Read more...]

Filed Under: 2011, 40 weeks, Fullterm, Genetic Disorder, Stillbirth
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Maya

Mom to Aiden/Abbey

Lost March 15, 2012

Milwaukee, Wisconsin

I was nowhere near ready to be a mother. I was barely out of high school. My boyfriend and I had only been together a little more than half a year. We were close. We were young. We were in love. We had a near perfect relationship. When I missed my period, we both promised not to panic. Despite our promise, we were both scared. And we knew it. I was scared to lose him; I was scared of not being able to achieve my dreams and goals of college. He was scared to face our family; He was scared of putting his own dreams on hold. And yet, we managed to hold strong together. At least for a while. [Read more...]

Filed Under: 2012, 4 weeks, Early Miscarriage, Wisconsin
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Sarah

Mom to Dillan

Lost October 26, 2010

Whitfield, New Hampshire

I was told by my OBGYN that it would be very difficult to get pregnant. This was a difficult thing to hear but didn’t worry me too much at this point since I was 19 years old and wasn’t planning on having children any time soon, but wanted children in my future. My doctor had informed me that I would have to undergo surgery to have the chance of having children one day. I got scheduled for surgery and everything went as planned. The surgery took place in late June 2010. My boyfriend and I were very happy that the surgery went well and that one day we would be able to have children together, and also very happy about my speedy recovery. [Read more...]

Filed Under: 2010, miscarriage, New Hampshire
May 12, 2012 By 7 Comments

Molly

Mom to Eden Elizabeth

Stillborn March 18, 2012

Greensboro, North Carolina

Around 8 p.m. on Saturday, March 17th, I noticed I was having a few small contractions. I didn’t think too much of them since I had been having painless contractions for the past week or so. I had been at the hospital earlier that day for my blood pressure and for the 3 hours I was there, only 1 contraction had been shown on the monitor. I figured that these contractions were either fake or still the very, very start of early labor at 38 weeks. I went about my business, putting my 2-year-old son Isaiah to bed, and then fell asleep on the couch after watching my boyfriend Keith and his friend play a few games of pool. I woke up around midnight and realized the contractions were still coming pretty consistently. I asked Keith to stay up and watch a movie with me, even though I knew it was a bad idea considering it was the last full night of sleep we’d be getting for a while. We stayed up, watching Nightmare on Elm Street and talking about how unprepared I felt while Keith rubbed my back and reassured me that everything would be taken care of. At about 5 a.m., my contractions were about 7 minutes apart. Keith had already fallen asleep and even though I felt un-ready, nervous, and anxious, I decided to try to get a few hours of sleep. [Read more...]

Filed Under: 2012, 38 weeks, Fullterm, North Carolina, Stillbirth
May 12, 2012 By 2 Comments

Shan-Nel

Mom to Ashley Antoinette

Born and died April 22, 2011

Rosedale, Maryland

It was St. Patrick’s Day, March 17, 2011 when I went to the hospital from getting the WORST pain in my life to find out after the hospital nurses took samples that I was pregnant.

I was so shocked and thrilled at the same time. How was I pregnant for so long and not really know? I’m pregnant?! Yay! Wow! [Read more...]

Filed Under: 2011, 21 weeks, Infant loss, Maryland, Neonatal death, Preterm labor
May 12, 2012 By 1 Comment

Jen

Mom to Mariah and Juliette

Born and died March 5, 2012

Philadelphia, Pennsylvania

My husband and I have been married seven years and through patience, hard work, dreaming, and a bit of luck – we have managed to build a beautiful and fulfilling life together. A couple years ago we decided we were ready to start trying for our family. [Read more...]

Filed Under: 20 weeks, 2012, Pennsylvania, pPROM, Second trimester loss, Stillbirth, Twins
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Sarah

Mom to América

Lost at 9 weeks October 24, 2011

Seville, Spain (originally from Walpole, Massachusettes)

I am American, living abroad in Spain.  We found out on September 14th, 2011 that I was pregnant with our much-desired baby number 2.  Our firstborn, Manuela, was just eleven months old, but truth be told, we had been trying since soon after she joined us.  There was “no rush” but we did want them to be close together in age (they would have been 19 months apart).  We were thrilled with the positive result and began to make plans for our new baby’s early May arrival. [Read more...]

Filed Under: 2011, 9 weeks, D and C, Early Miscarriage, first trimester loss, massachusetts, Missed Miscarriage, Spain
May 12, 2012 By 1 Comment

Donna

Mom to Baby Sawtelle

Lost September 14, 2005

Etna, Maine

My name is Donna. I met my husband Jerry through a mutual friend of ours, and I think I had some idea right from the start that we would spend the rest of our lives together. 

I always knew, ever since I was a little girl, that I wanted to be a mother.  I had a book that chronicled my school years when I was young, and for every year there was a section in the book asking what you wanted to be when you grew up.  I had some of the typical things, nurse, movie star, etc.  But I always put “Mommy.” [Read more...]

Filed Under: 10 weeks, 2005, D and C, Early Miscarriage
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Vanessa

Mom to M. R. S.
Born into Heaven February 2011

and

J. Q. S.
Born into Heaven February 2012

Bowling Green, Kentucky

When I had my third child, I had only been not-pregnant for 16 months before getting pregnant with her. Unfortunately, in our humanness, we are broken people, and I was pretty resistant to having a baby so soon after having my second child. Her pregnancy was not a pleasant one, and neither was my attitude towards it. When she arrived though, and spent 7 days in the NICU, my attitude changed drastically. This sets the premise for the story of my first miscarriage. [Read more...]

Filed Under: 11 weeks, 2011, 2012, 6 weeks, Early Miscarriage, Kentucky, Multiple loss
May 12, 2012 By 1 Comment

Maria

Mom to Samuel

Stillborn February 16, 2012

Berkshire, United Kingdom

When we got pregnant we had tried to conceive for a few years and had also added two cycles of IVF to the mix of building our family. To finally be pregnant was a victory and we couldn’t wait to meet our baby. A true miracle it was.

My pregnancy was pretty uneventful, I had just a little nausea, heartburn and general tiredness but otherwise I was feeling good and healthy. From week twelve I started more and more to believe this was real and my fears of something going wrong decreased significantly. [Read more...]

Filed Under: 20 weeks, 2012, Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome, Poor prenatal diagnosis, Stillbirth, UK
May 2, 2012 By 6 Comments

Jennifer

Mother to Jude Allen

December 21, 2011

Parker, Colorado

 

Jude’s Story (from my blog)
Jude was the child God had for us from the beginning. We will probably never know completely why we weren’t able to spend this life with him, but we wait with eager anticipation for the day we will all be together again in Heaven.

[Read more...]

Filed Under: 2011, 27 weeks, Colorado, First child, Second trimester loss, Stillbirth, Triploidy
May 1, 2012 By 9 Comments

 Amy

Mom to Anna

Born still April 25, 2011

Early loss December 2011

Troy, Michigan

 

In honor of my daughter, Anna, who would have been 1 year old this April 25th, I have decided to share her story in hopes of creating awareness and helping even just one person experiencing the death of a baby.  [Read more...]

Filed Under: 2011, 37 weeks, Cord Compression, Early Miscarriage, Fullterm, Michigan, Stillbirth, Umbilical cord accident, Umbilical cord hypercoiling
May 1, 2012 By 3 Comments

Karen

Mother to Nicholas John

Born in the arms of angels 19 March 2012

Gold Coast, Australia

I can’t believe it has been 3 weeks and 3 days since it happened, it feels so much longer – certainly longer than the entire 9 month pregnancy! [Read more...]

Filed Under: 10 weeks, 2011, 2012, 38 weeks, Australia, D and C, miscarriage, Stillbirth
April 20, 2012 By 12 Comments

Heather

Mom to Everett

Born sleeping February 10, 2012

Wakefield, Rhode Island

Before his delivery date, my son had everything he could possibly need. We made sure he was registered for the car seat with the highest safety ratings.  We chose organic cotton onesies that were softest to the touch.  We even had the warming machine for the wet wipes.  Sisters were knitting hats, friends were making quilts, and grandmothers were already decorating the nursery in their mind’s eye.  Finally, he had a name.  Believe it or not, it came to me in a dream.  Maybe he told me himself – his name was to be Everett. [Read more...]

Filed Under: Heart Defect, HLHS, Preterm labor, Rhode Island, Stillbirth
April 14, 2012 By 8 Comments

Jianna

Mom to Mackensie Owenn

Born still November 2, 2011

Parker, Colorado

I’ve always dreamt of having a really big family of my own, I love being around people (shocker, I know!) and I absolutely love that we have such a HUGE family now (between Brad and I, we have 5 siblings and 9 nieces and nephews).  I love watching all of the kids play with one another and knowing they will all be able to grow up together (and get into trouble together)!  I remember telling my Mom that I thought having an ‘odd’ amount of kids is better than even, why, I have no idea; I think I just always wanted more than 2, so an ‘odd’ amount sounded good to me.  When Brad and I had Jace we instantly knew that we wanted a big family- 3 to be exact!  [Read more...]

Filed Under: 2011, 38 weeks, Colorado, Cord accident, Fullterm, Stillbirth
April 14, 2012 By 2 Comments

Andrea

Mom to Baby Angel

Lost March 27, 2012 at 9 weeks

Watertown, New York

I found out I was pregnant with my second child on February 9, 2012. I had wanted to have another child for a while now; my daughter will be turning 4 at the end of April so it had been a year or two since I wanted to try. I do a daycare in my house. I’m around kids all day I just love them and wanted my child to have a brother or sister. [Read more...]

Filed Under: 2012, 9 weeks, Early Miscarriage, New York
April 14, 2012 By 4 Comments

Amy

Mom to Aliya Amy and Bennett Paul

Lost August 5, 2011

Tenino, Washington

Paul and I were introduced in April 2005 by my friend Amanda, who was engaged to Paul’s younger brother (she’s my sister-in-law now). Even though I was dating someone else at the time, she declared me Paul’s perfect match and would not let it go! She was right, of course…although very different, we were perfect for each other. Our paths crossed again in July 2005, and since I had broken up with the other guy, Paul found the nerve to ask me out. We had our first date a couple of weeks later and have been together ever since. We got engaged Thanksgiving weekend 2005 and married in September 2006. We started trying for our first child in October 2007, one month after our first wedding anniversary. I’d been on and off birth control for years to prevent pregnancy…little did I know how difficult it would actually be for us to get pregnant. [Read more...]

Filed Under: 14 weeks, 2011, Infection, Infertility, IUI, Placenta Previa, placental abruption, Second trimester loss, Twins, Washington
April 14, 2012 By 3 Comments

Natalie

Mom to Noel Mary

Born still September 22, 2011

Fenton, Michigan

I am 36 years old, and my husband of 2 years is 34.  We have been together for a long time and he decided 3 years ago to make an honest woman out of me.  John is my best friend…he has been for almost 12 years now.  We share everything and can hide nothing from each other.  We are very much in love still and when we found out on January 14, 2011 that we were going to be parents after only trying for a couple of months to conceive. We were elated.  My pregnancy was okay as far as they go, until the last 4 weeks or so.  I had a very active baby girl in there and she was always on the move.  She loved to listen to me talk and when I did start talking she would move up in my belly just to be closer to my voice.  She would literally dance when a good song came on the radio, she had a knack for kicking or punching the beat out, my doctor thought this was me being CRAZY until she actually felt it for herself on a regular OB visit in the summer. [Read more...]

Filed Under: 2011, Cord accident, Fullterm, Michigan, Stillbirth, true knot
April 14, 2012 By 2 Comments

Monica

Mom to Ryan Alan – December 7, 2011
and
Andrew Jonathan – December 8, 2011

Oak Island, North Carolina

After trying to conceive for 4 years my husband and I discovered we were pregnant with triplets in September.  We were happy but overwhelmed; at 7 weeks we met with the maternal fetal specialist who explained the risks and options.  She sent us to Duke to meet with another specialist who did genetic testing and advised us to reduce to twins.  It was a very hard decision but we felt that it would give the other two the best chance.  It was a horrible procedure to go through, and in hindsight I don’t know that I would do it again, but at the time I thought I was increasing my babies’ odds…It was so strange to grieve one and yet be excited for two. [Read more...]

Filed Under: 2011, Late Miscarriage, North Carolina, Placenta Previa, placental abruption, Preterm labor, Twin Loss
April 10, 2012 By 5 Comments

Lindsey

Mom to Gary

Stillborn December 14, 2011

Cumberland, Rhode Island

We had been married for two weeks when we found out that we were pregnant.  While we weren’t actively trying to get pregnant, we had made a conscious decision not to prevent pregnancy and we were thrilled to find out that we were expecting a baby!  Because it was so early in the pregnancy we decided not to tell friends or family that we were expecting until after we returned from our honeymoon.  We spent the whole trip telling strangers about our big news because we were so excited.  When we got back from the trip and told our parents that they were going to be grandparents, they could not have been happier.  If truly felt like everything was falling into place for us.  We had a perfect wedding day, a dream honeymoon, were in the process of buying a house, and now our dream of becoming parents was coming true.   [Read more...]

Filed Under: Cord accident, Preeclampsia, Rhode Island, Stillbirth
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